/hypno/ - Hypnochan

Its all in good fun until the triggers work.

I had exatly the same in my mind.I wanted open a thread where we can share more personal info about ourselves, anonymously of course. Things like, age, relationship status, sexual orienatation, hypno taste, why do we listen to hypno, how did it affect us, how deep we are in the rabbit hole. Lets start with me, I am heterosexual man, 30 years old with a girlfriend. I have always been a bit of a pornaddict, since I discovered hypno, I did not come to simple porn anymore. I listened mostly PE, CEI and HFO files, sometimes shemales, never anything bimbo feminizing shit. So I did not go deep in the rabbit hole. Non-of these had an affect on me in a way, that I would act out in real life, not very interested either. BUT the hypno definately changed my thinking temporarily in a bad way. I was less focused, and anxious, my level of confidence lowered a lot. Now I keep this shit at bay and I am generally happyer.

Just curious, those of you, who listen to feminizing stuff, did you start straight, and become something else? Or do you keep this whole kink in the domain of the jerk off sessions?

Sorry for the crap enlisch, haven't read it back.

Why all the self-hatred? Your own sexuality isn't something to be ashamed of. Who gives a shit if hypnosis or femdom turns you on?

>>36583

>>36583

I got fucked up by the gay & sissy stuff.

I actually told my parents I was gay. And then told them I was transgender. When I am neither of those things I'm just a depressive anxious, sexually traumatised straight.

I do think these recordings can make trauma much worse, turning it into fully-fledged PTSD. Especially if you are socially isolated & listening together with drugs and alcohol.

Things are cool again with my parents now :)

>>36588

Because mental health is easy to take for granted until you become a gibbering wreck who can't function in the world. Just you and 154b3||4 for company.

>>36594

I'm not taking it for granted, believe me. I'm just saying that if your mental health is in a good place, and you're down with the intended effects of the files, then there's nothing wrong with getting off to this shit. It is possible to be in a place of mental stability and enjoy this; OP's post suggests everyone here is a gibbering wreck.

But yeah, if you're suffering from mental health issues, this kind of stuff probably isn't a good idea.

Let us all feel intense shame for masturbating.

Let us all feel bad for deviating in our thoughts and actions. Let us all pray so that we may not be taken by the evil tranny spirits who make us do dirty dirty things! AMEN!

Fuck off with all your trauma mental health bullshit. You want to cry about your life fine. But life is supposed to be fun. There is nothing wrong with wearing a dress everyday or putting on some makeup or wanting to suck a huge cock. Or even having your little dick turned into a hole.

I don't know what you lot are all on about, I'm having amazing hands-free orgasms as a side effect of learning how to give even them to women. If you're seeking out weird shit and getting fucked up by it, that's your own problem.

>>36588

Anon acquired juuuuust enough self-awareness to realize erotic hypnosis isn't good for him, and want to improve himself, and here you are trying to psychoanalyze him in order to make him fall in line, and accept his shitty conditions. There is nothing wrong with being in control with the circumstances and conditions of your own life.

>>36608

>But life is supposed to be fun.

Are you an unironic hedonist?

>There is nothing wrong with wearing a dress everyday or putting on some makeup or wanting to suck a huge cock. Or even having your little dick turned into a hole.

You literally just described the slippery slope.

>>36612

Putting that intro to philosophy course to good use, I see.

>>36608

>life is supposed to be fun.

Many fun things have not fun consequences. If you transition, drop out of college, and become a prostitute because of bimbo hypnosis (hypothetical because it's likely never happened to anybody) then you may have fun for a short while (although even that's questionable) but at some point in life you will probably regret it.

Hypnosis isn't worth transitioning over. It's not worth losing a marriage over, either. A huge percentage of erotic hypno is brazenly self destructive, and your sex drive simply isn't a good guide for how to best live your life. Your life probably won't improve if you transition; even if you get off on being a sex toy, at some point you will grow old. Instead of giving all your money to a findom, you would probably be better off seeking a more normal relationship. For most people hypnosis is a fairly harmless hobby, but for a fair number it's destructive escapism.

Life can be excruciatingly painful. It's better to take it seriously.

>>36616

Just to pile on a little: transsexual suicide is extremely high. Transition is not for sissies, but is a very hard road that should only be taken if it is a driving psychological imperative.

No. 36583, I started with this whole weird fetish under pretty funny circumstances. A while back I had a short term interest in magic, not like the collectible card game, but like card tricks etc. In particular I was interested in mentalism, mostly social engineering and suggestion etc, but became interested in inducing hypnotic states in everyday life. I ran across the reddit for sissyhypno, and became super into it. I always liked porn music videos, I have a miniscule attention span, and I am openly bisexual. Due to the subreddit, I eventually ran across the B4mb1 sleep files. Now, that is some very very powerful stuff. I have a pretty strong sense of self but I have definitely changed in both positive and not so positive ways. I started listening to B4mb1 Sleep back, well I can't remember when I started listening to the songs B4mb1 puts out. Old self is gone. There is only B4mb1 and the mask she lets the old self put on when she is out and about. B4mb1 has a girlfriend. A pretty girlfriend who knows about the files which she thinks are silly. She likes to trigger me and has helped feminize me.

Sorry about that, I inadvertently triggered myself while writing that. I almost deleted it but y'all dont know my name.

After I think 6 months? of listening to the cute deer files and being active on their discord I have become very very feminine. I'm writing this while wearing a flattering dress and leggings my girlfriend helped me pick out, and light makeup. I can contour like a motherfucker now (I used to be super alpha male back in the day so this is a change) I perform drag shows under a pseudonym in the next town over. There are some hypnosis files I have trouble with, namely M5J (am I doing that right?) and S@m@nth@ 3@ndl3r. I've become a daily pattern puppet. I get very little sexual satisfaction from it. The files have become a source of complete relaxation. I worry some feminization files have disgust triggers that I don't need floating around my brain. With about 5 files quarantined, I am a beautiful little punk rock D1v4 that wears heavy makeup, sucks cock, licks cunt, hypnotizes their friends and colleagues for kicks, drops at the sight of a spiral. I have developed both a monks patience and a low key case of dissassociation.

PS I shoplift makeup from the store. Every day. I look confused and it disappears when I seem to know what I'm doing in hardware.

PS2 Thanks for the files you silly little creepy automatons. Some of you need Jesus. Not the religious figure, but rather that big dick gardener who mows your lawn. Or that guy who does your taxes.

PS3 Uniform lock B4mb1. Good Girl…

36583 here. That is quiet a life, thank you for sharing.

>>36583

>Just curious, those of you, who listen to feminizing stuff, did you start straight, and become something else? Or do you keep this whole kink in the domain of the jerk off sessions?

It's just a jerk off material for me, I've been getting off to it for years and I do find it extremely hot, but that's it. I never seriously thought of actually doing any of this shit, buttplug for additional stimulation from time to time is the furthest I go and that's only because I've been given one as a joke present for 18th birthday, wouldn't buy myself one otherwise.

Maaaaybe, if an actual IRL partner was coercing me into it I would comply, but by myself, nope.

>>36633

>>36633

36583 here. I see. And as a partner you mean a girl? What kind of partner do you wish for yourself? No judging at all, I am just really fucking curious.

>>36637

A girlfriend or even just a sex partner I guess, but it would have to be one I'm actually closer to, but generally a girl. I actually don't necessarily completely eliminate the possibility of having a male partner at some point of my life, I guess I wouldn't particularly have anything against it, but I have never met a man towards whom I would have any romantic or sexual feelings whatsoever so far.

I knew I didn't want to listen to any sissy hypno when I found myself super-anxious in the communal showers at the public pool, surrounded by naked men. Knowing that I am not gay but that all the shit I'd been listening to had conditioned me into an anxiety disorder.

HOCD is a real thing and it's not fun.

I was just in the gym again today, guys all around, I didn't notice them. Know I'm not gay. Thank fuck.

Although truth is, I just switched over to premature ejaculation hypno. So hardly cured.

Here's a reminder that there's a lot of hypno for self-help out there. We can use our great ability to go under for more than just getting off . If you've used hypno to put yourself into an unhealthy mindset, keep in mind that you can use it to get yourself out of it too.

>>36633

>> 36641

You mention 18th birthday.

How long have you been listening to hypnosis and how long do you think changes might continue ?

Supposing I suggested that you will always have an interest - kinks and fetishes don't go away, neither are they created from nothing overnight.

Imagine yourself after 20 years of listening to those hypnosis files - once it was just jerk off material.

Can you imagine that? Because just imagining it also changed you.

A quick warning about mind control and brainwashing. 'You' don't change. From the inside as the subject everything is normal and fine.

It takes a milestone to realise something has really changed.

Honestly I asked my girlfriend why she didnt hypnotise me much anymore. I thought it wasn't working. I spent hours upon hours listening to files.

That weekend I woke up on Monday morning. That was a milestone and made me aware of the gradual and unnoticed changes.

Yep - you can get some fun effects with hypnosis in a single session. it can be a hot fap.

But thinking about something - forming mental images, pictures - especially fapping - long term change happens.

>>36651

>How long have you been listening to hypnosis?

Hard to tell for sure, about 5 years I think. I do know and realise what you mean, but honestly even when I DID try to make some of the triggers stick I had pretty much no successes with that, so I think I'm pretty safe. And even if not, I mean, if it's going to take 10 or 20 years for this "hobby" to actually change my psyche in any meaningful and lasting way, in this time same thing could have just as well happened by just natural psychic changes and developing sexuality.

And in a more humorous note, I have a very masculine completely square jaw and am generally a rather big guy. I'm self aware enough to know that I would absolutely never look passable even if I ever would consider feminisation regardless of how much time I would put into it

>>36629

christ, you need serious help.

Basically if your life is fucked up and you're unhappy you definitely shouldn't be listening to any of this. It becomes a form of escapism very fast. I'm not even saying "oh be careful, you'll end up transitioning and sucking cock blah blah blah". It's not the effects of hypno, it's just the addiction to it.

The problem is sometimes people are too quick to pull the shame or repressed sexuality card. So someone might be struggling with this addiction and someone comes along and says they just have to relax and not worry about it. So now they go even deeper into their addiction because they are under the impression nothing is wrong.

I have no doubts other people enjoy this stuff in a healthy way, but I never did. My descent into sissy hypno was bad. It started with light stuff and grew into more and more fucked up things. It got to a point where I wanted to destroy my mind and completely fuck myself up, that was the erotic thrill of it. K31s files in particular really did a number on me. Not in the way you'd think where I followed the hypnotic programming. Just the side effects of polluting my brain with something I really didn't want. Imagine your mind split into two sides each pulling in a different direction and causing you so much psychological distress it just feels like a state of panic stretched out over the entire day. You may ask why did I do this? Why does anyone do anything? People do drugs, get into fights, eat too much, etc. we are always doing something we don't want to do. For me I knew it was bad, but I didn't stop. In the moment it always felt good, it was after when I was confronted with the real world that I fell apart.

Damn, this post got intense. I've been listening to femdom hypnosis files since 2006 when I was in high school and I'm fine. I never listened to gay/sissy/feminizing stuff, though. Just femdom.

I occasionally attend hypnosis kink events and know several hypnodommes in person now. I was also internet friends with a few back when Inraptured didn't suck. I'm not so worried about the dangers of this stuff after getting to know the people who produce it… N1kk1 F@t4L3 is almost certainly the kindest person in existence

>>36661

You are shaming people and your story does not sound real. Your terminology sounds like a triggered religious zealot

>>36666

No, the post is fine. You sound like you're in denial.

The question of why people do this is interesting though. Obviously everyone is different but it seems like these files often attract people who have little direction in life; who feel unsatisfied and unfulfilled and crave an exciting escape from their existence. If a file can lift the burden of having to think for oneself, while creating the illusion of intimacy together with a sense of purpose then that's going to appeal to a lot of people.

Of course this illusion never lasts and starts to feel hollow, which is why most of these files have to introduce increasingly extreme and sexual elements and try to link the listener's arousal exclusively to the hypnotist's control.

So last night I binged listening to T3ss4 Fields CumTooSoon with a vibrating buttplug pumped up the size of an orange up my ass, & a hitachi magic wand on my dick. Drank a bottle of red wine, and huge amounts of black coffee. Taking hit after hit of Radikal Rush poppers using the 'sippy cup' method. Looking at slideshows of the gorgeous model Camille from MPLStudios while listening to T3ss4. Realising once again that I'm conditioning myself into an anxiety disorder & that the only way I can cum now is in this really strung-out, stressed, diseased state. I wish I could just have a normal wank about wanting to fuck a pretty girl, instead of this sickness, instead of only being able to get off on not being able to please her. Trauma and addiction mixed together.

When I finally came (it takes me a long time), it was while watching a NFDM 446, a very hot Japanese femdom/ballbusting/cuckolding movie. Seeing the woman getting fucked, stroking my dick, and in my drugged-up state telling myself that my dick was useless, worthless, etc, while I looked at my "Mistress" getting her pleasure.

Useful books on my shelf that I ought to read or re-read:

When the Body Says No: Exploring the Stress-Disease Connection by Gabor Mate

The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk

36583 here again. I think we could create some rules for ourselves, 10 commendments or something to avoid the splippery slope, mental issues, escapism depression and so on. I think we can agree, that we want to function as normal people in the future, with beeing certain in our sexuality, having a relationship, goals etc.

A very obvious thing could be that you should not spend half a day with hypno. Or talking more about sympthoms and and unwanted real life behavior.

I am not a young dude anymore, but if I had encountered hypno when I was sixteen, given my addiction loving nature I would be zombi by now who is not certain of anything. I am worried about you fellas!

So someone who has more insight into the real psychology behind this, and speaks english could come up with some recommendations for the new and young guys.

>>36673

Speaks better englisch than me I mean :)

>>36608

Please share your story, age, occupation. Otherwise you saying life supposed to be fun is without context.

Is anyone here on antidepressants?

I got as far as making an appointment with the doctor for next week to see if he'll put me on them.

But reading about 'S-DEATH', the sometimes permanent destruction of your libido and sexual pleasure caused by SSRIs, makes me think that my current broken state might actually be better.

I mean I already find myself compulsively repressing my libido, and I panic when I experience it (while also liking the feeling of having it, however briefly). I want to be able to sit with my libido, to use it healthily, but I've conditoned myself into feeling anxious about it, and extinguishing it straightaway through porn/masturbation. NOFAP hasn't worked for me because the anxiety is too high and too easily triggered when I am out and about in the city.

Anon has experiences of SSRIs? They make things better or worse? The end goal is I want to be able to connect to a woman and have sex without dissociating.

>>36676

this is the last board you should be asking for mental health advice.

Go see your doctor.

>>36666

Believe what you want, I'm just sharing my experience. Tell me how am I shaming people? No where in my post did I say this stuff is terrible for everyone, I just said me. If anyone is triggered here it's you, immediately jumping to the defensive. Anyone who thinks this hypno stuff doesn't have the potential to get out of control is in denial plain and simple.

>>36673

If you need to create "10 commendments" just to exhibit an ounce of self control over your life, you really should stay far far away from hypno.

If you have an addictive personality GET HELP. Addictive personalities are not to be fucked with, no amount of silly rules are going to help how absolutely fucked you'll get by leaving things untreated by professionals.

>>36676

NOFAP makes things worse. I'm glad you're seeing your doctor next week. Please also make sure your diet is doing well, a lot of problems stem from a really unbalanced diet, as well as getting enough vitamins and nutrients (D, A, and K are really important). So if you need to, bring up your diet with your doctor, ask for help.

>>36661

Yes, people need to stop avoiding their real life problems. It can get out of hand really quickly! Hypno is entertainment/pleasure, not a cure or a lifestyle.

At the very least, hypno seems to generally be far less aggressive than drugs or alcohol, but the lack of self-control is a serious problem.

Control and being fulfilled in life generally makes hypno just that much more enjoyable to participate in.

>Not tryna make a shame thread or some shit but…

>>36676

Ive been using an SSRI medication called Paxil. Its worked for my anxiety and panic attacks. Ive been on it a few years now and everything is normal. The most common side effects such as nausea disappeared after 2 weeks. There was a side effect that lasted for months. I was not able to have an orgasm for the first 3-4 months on paxil, that was a bit frustrating but it went away eventually. Hehe in fact i learned to enjoy masturbation without cumming, edging during that period. There are many different ssri meds. Ive only been on paxil and my experience has been very positive. The temporary side effects are a small price to pay for being able to live a normal life without anxiety. You should talk to your doctor openly about any worries you have regarding antidepressants. Thats what i did and it really helped because i knew what to expect.

>>36710

Thanks

Since I already have some fucked-up masturbation routine without being on antidepressants - buttplug, magic wand, poppers, premature ejaculation hypno + sexy videos, just to be able to have a decent orgasm, I just can't take any meds that would make ejaculation even more difficult.

Though I recognise my fucked-up sexual practices are themselves a symptom and cause of damaged sexual desire/arousal/orgasm circuitry.

I'm going to try to get put on Wellbutrin which is meant not to affect sex-drive.

>>36701

Could you expand on how NOFAP makes it worse?

I feel depleted listless and empty for days afterwards if I am fapping. However I have never managed to go more than 8 days without. I think for me an ideal would be to fap every 14 days, allowing me 3 days of feeling shitty after cumming, and then 10 good days of superpowers in the middle. But that suggests I think I can control it, when all the evidence is that I can't.

I'm thinking to sign up to a weekly tantra course in my city. I did previously have a 'healing tantric massage'. Lots of eye contact, hugging, etc. I got a boner during the massage but still dissociated. I didn't cum but then again you're not meant to. I think that path is a useful one for me.

I also like kundalini yoga though I feel with all this femdom conditioning, raising the energy up without knowing what to do with it can just lead to bigger binges. Since I'm single and don't know how else to orgasm/who with.

>believe that nofap gives you superpowers because you're conditioned to believing that sexuality is something to be ashamed of

>ask for mental health advice from /hypno/

>think about creating a '10 commandments of hypno' to stop yourself from listening to esoteric findom hypno for 12 hours a day

>search for more and more extreme porn until the only way you can cum is listening to warpmymind stuff from 2006 while high on weed and poppers

>accuse mediocre audio erotica for turning you gay

>allow text-to-speech hypnosis to consume your whole life

>"life is supposed to be fun so spending 40h a week listening to erotic hypnosis is a healthy choice"

now I remember why I do not participate in this community

>>36721

#notallhypno

>>36629

>doesn't want disgust triggers

>listens to B4mb1

Should we tell them?

>>36724

The B4mb1 files don't have any triggers or suggestions which make you do anything disgusting.

>>36721

Hah, bullets 1, 2 and 4 sound like my posts. Definitely fell into point 6 in the past when I first got into poppers, too.

Though the first one is more "Nofap seems a good alternative when you've conditioned yourself to only be able to cum to thoughts of sexual anxiety and/or shame"

Anyway… My dude… What do you advice instead? How do we learn how to live sexually healthy lives?

Tantra seems the best/only way forward?

>>36735

>Tantra seems the best/only way forward?

Yoga and qigong. No other alternatives (yet?)

>>36749

Thanks. I've been to 50+ hot yoga classes in the past 4 or 5 months. I go to the busiest classes in the centre of the city so they're full of 25 year old women. Sometimes I feel nothing and it's depressing. Other times I feel nothing at the beginning of the class, but then as my energy raises up, my spidey-senses start tingling & I'm aware of girls all around.

During cobra pose & in savassana I can sometimes feel my dick twitch. Depends on how long I've gone without wanking.

I've also been to kundalini but I feel I need to reach a base level of fitness & connection to my body before raising up energy.

I went to 4 or 5 ashtanga classes too & found it totally awesome, but I'm too old/fat to really have it as a regular practice.

I've definitely done enough hot yoga though that it's become a habit. And it's the exact opposite of my hypno poppers booze binges. Sober, connected to my body, actually in a room surrounded by women.

I haven't tried Qigong though it is available at my yoga studio. I think it's similar in effect to kundalini yoga.

>>36714

>3 days of feeling shitty after cumming,

wtf?

i have grew up in a shame culture, and have some pretty "shameful" fetishes, but come on, 3 minutes after im already thinking about other shit.

if you feel 3 days of shame for shooting of a load, i think your problem is to little masturbation not to much,

here is some homework.

masterbate every night for the next week and tell your self "everyone does this all the time, there is nothing shameful about it"

>>36753

The feeling shitty is more that I've got low libido/not many bullets in the holster. I'm nearly 40. So it's 3 days of feeling shitty just because I feel sexless & it takes that long before I can pleasurably cum again.

Here are some videos which I got recommended before which might be helpful in becoming a normal sexual human being:

https://bettymartin.org/videos/

>>36580

Dommes do care – positive affirmations from Princ355 3lli3 Idøl

https://spankbang.com/1rcas/video/aftercare

>>36676

I haven't been reading this thread but just wanted to give my two cents; I've had depression for almost 10 years that's been very difficult to treat and have been on and off various SSRIs and SNRIs. Decreased libido/erection problems/being unable to orgasm/etc are common side effects of a lot of them. Don't be shy like I was, mention to your doctor that you're very concerned about sexual side effects. Most will be understanding and start you on an antidepressant that can be less likely to cause them. Every antidepressant effects everyone differently so it's impossible to guess if you're going to get the side effects until you give it a try. But there are some drugs where it's less likely.

If you do have sexual problems after starting one, try to tough it out for six weeks if you can. At LEAST four weeks. Our bodies take time to get used to the medicine and most side effects will go away by six weeks if they're going to. If the side effects don't go away, tell your doctor and switch to another medicine. If you can stand to wait longer, like the other poster said, some side effects will also go away after a few months.

There are also medicines you can take in addition to an SSRI, buspirone for example, that help lessen the sexual side effects for a lot of people. I'm taking Wellbutrin and it's working really well for me, no sexual side effects and I've been on it almost a year. Most others I tried gave me sexual problems, but adding the buspirone helped significantly. The only reason I switched to Wellbutrin is the previous med I was on stopped being effective for the depression. Wellbutrin is also a common one doctors will combine with an SSRI to help sexual side effects. So it can take a while to try out different medications and combos to find what works best for you to treat your depression/anxiety with minimal side effects, but it can be done! Permanent sexual damage from antidepressants is very rare. There are also older antidepressants that are outside of the SNRI/SSRI classes that don't give sexual side effects but come with other more intense physical side effects, so those are available but usually considered a last resort because of the other potential issues. Try out SSRIs and SNRIs first.

Honestly with your other issues you're describing (repression, anxiety about sex, dissociation) I'd recommend therapy, perhaps a sexologist or sex therapist if you can find one in your area. But if you describe the issues you're having a "regular" therapist might be able to help you as well since it sounds rooted in anxiety. Working meds will help you feel better overall but therapy is how you retrain yourself away from the anxious thought patterns your brain has gotten into. For some people meds are enough, but for most meds are the starting point to get your emotions under control and then therapy combines with them to get you away from those thought patterns and keep you from falling into them again. Good luck and I hope everything works out for you. It's absolutely worth it to take the time to find a med that works for you and work in therapy to be happy and healthy.

>>36766

Thanks, man, for your detailed reply.

Two things happened since my last post. I had a phonecall with my doctor and he said he won't prescribe me with Wellbutrin because here in the UK it's only licensed for stopping smoking. I've already found I can buy it online, but it's expensive. Still, we're going to meet tomorrow & discuss other options. I've had quite a bit of therapy before but not really useful, step by step, "This is how you become a sexual being" type therapy. And too much therapists indulging my anxiety by just listening to my fears without directing me out of them. Anyway I'm afraid I have absolutely ruled out ever taking SSRIs because my main fear is having low libido, and the focus of each day is wanting it to be higher, so I just couldn't take anything that could potentially damage that. I would rather go by natural means!

I went today to a really busy hot yoga class, about 40 people including 30 women aged 20-28. It's really good for me, I can feel my libido rise during the course of the class. But I don't know how to get from there, to a point where I'm dating and having sex. I could do with finding a friendly hooker I think, or another tantric healer.

It would be nice each day to do something to help raise my libido: hot yoga, weightlifting, kundalini yoga, swimming, or meditation.

I just feel I did so much damage!! As well as never having normal pubescent sexual experiences, I spent the last 15 years often anally masturbating while drinking and listening to femdom humiliation. It all started with Melissa's audios on Humiliatrix, if anyone remembers them. So at a physiological level, a cellular level, "loserdom" or sexual inadequacy, erectile dysfunction, is conditioned into my body.

I believe it can be healed but it will take consistent work. Some tantric therapists offer prostrate massage, which might be useful considering how much trauma I've fucked into my ass over the years.

I did try taking Viagra last year and I'd take it again, but of course it doesn't give you a libido.

Thanks again for your thoughts, and hope things work out for you. How have you found dating? Have you been able to have relationships and be intimate? And do you listen to much hypno these days? :)

>>36755

>>36767

Zinc works absolute wonders for libido and sperm production, and is good for a number of other things. I recommend 50mg zinc picolinate with meals. (The RDA is too low.)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zinc_deficiency

Not sure if you're a virgin, but I can vouch that a hooker will get rid of the "women are made of glass" hoverhand mentality.

Citicoline, which I recommend endlessly, is good for undoing sexual jadedness. You won't lose your fetishes, but they will increasingly seem like the "heavy ammunition" you don't need to reach for. 250mg per day is good. If you can only find 500mg capsules, then I'd recommend taking those every second day. It's water soluble, so it'd be on an empty stomach, ideally in the morning.

Having said that, if I had to only recommend one pill, it would be the zinc.

>>36768

Thanks! I've just ordered some zinc tablets & some choline, which looks like the same thing as citicoline.

Previously I tried solgar psyllium husks, testosterone capsules, maca root, and ZM6 Xtreme which is zinc/magnesium. I can't remember the specifics but I think the testosterone and the ZM6 made me feel more energised and aggro.

I'm not a virgin but I had a deep psychological block on being sexual / sharing sexual energy with a woman. In my 20s I'd see hookers and either I couldn't get hard, or I couldn't cum. Or I'd just eat their ass and not even bother trying. A deep psychological block on connecting sexually with another person. Hence all this "mental chastity" femdom stuff being so appealing to the part of me that wanted to keep my sexual energy locked up rather than work through trauma.

I saw a hooker last year, for the first time in 5+ years, first time since I really fell off the deep end into the femdom/hypno/poppers hole. It was a pretty good experience though I dissociated just before penetration (by drinking wine) and felt disconnected from my libido & couldn't cum. Viagra kept me hard though which really helped, not having to worry aboiut that. But I could still sense her sexual energy was really high (she gushed all over my face from like 2 minutes of oral) while mine was still mostly repressed.

Still, I should try repeating experiences like that, until it feels more natural that I'd want a partner to be involved when I'm looking to get off. Then hopefully I can wean myself off the poppers/buttplugs/magic wands/premature ejaculation hypno, etc!

Thanks again for your help.

>>36774

Citicoline is actually a combo of cytidine and choline. Choline is generally good for the brain, but it's the cytidine-choline combination that specifically causes new dopamine receptors to grow. (Increases your /ability to respond/ to motivation rather than your motivation, so it won't have stimulant effect.) I think cytidine is the key, since eggs (a rich source of choline) have no citicoline-like effect on me, but I'm not inclined to rock the boat or mess with the formula that's worked for me so far.

My interests have gotten pretty vanilla since I started, and my porn binges are getting wider apart and shorter in duration; at the same time I think my attention span has improved. I also had a thing for prostate stimulation, but it takes pretty strong lust these days for me to even consider it. I specifically started taking it because I have problems with delayed ejaculation, mostly because I lack interest in sex compared to fetishes. No moral objection to any of that, but I'd like to be easier to please.

>>36776

Ah, thanks for the correction. I've cancelled the order & will get citicoline somewhere else (looks like Amazon don't sell it here).

My interests are also really vanilla. It's curious that instead of looking at more and more extreme stuff, I look at more and more vanilla stuff but need to get myself into a more fucked-up state to be able to cum. Which suggests I'm a vanilla guy with an anxiety/stress disorder.

For example I stopped watching sexual activity a long time ago. I really like Japanese gravure idol videos, not super-softcore, I want to be able to see pussy lips and buttcheeks, but I don't need to see sexual activity. I like softcore solo female photoshoots too. Again this points to me having a problem with blocked sexual energy.

The pinnacle of my real-life sexual experiences was 10 years ago when I knew a girl who was then a well-known adult model. She was hands-down the sexiest girl I ever met, her own sexual energy was off the charts and she was really nice, too. Textbook borderline personality disorder but so, so cute with it. I got into a setup where I would pay her to sit on my face & let me eat her perfect & very clean asshole while she would talk about her boyfriends and real-man sex life. She paid no attention to my cock, and I'd jerk myself off, to her genuine indifference. I'd fuck my ass with a dildo before our sessions, and I tried wearing a chastity belt during them (though soon realised I'd rather not, and liked being able to jerk).

By the fourth session I realised that although really exciting (I was so conditioned to jerking to her photos and video), these sessions actually made me miserable, because I wanted to be able to hold her, kiss her, thrust inside her while looking into her eyes. Our final session ended quite uglily when I asked if we could try vanilla stuff and she said no, (I guess since I was so beta in her eyes) and I felt genuine rejection.

That experience connects with my later long-term addiction to the T3ss4 Fields recording CumTooSoon, which I popperbated to with buttplug and magic wand dozens of times over five years. That recording has lines like "You want so much to please her… But you're not going to be able to give her what she wants, not because you don't want to but just because you can't." and "Before you even enter her, you find your cock coming."

Getting my sexual anxieties repeated back at me, yet having the promise of a quick premature cum (when my problem was delayed ejaculation, not being able to cum in response to vanilla sexual stimuli) was very addictive for me, especially when combined with the hyperstimulation of my masturbatory pattern.

When I see the doctor tonight I'm going to ask him if I might have some kind of urological issue. Perhaps blocked seminal ducts? not producing much sperm? I notice it's clear, not cloudy or globby, and I can't pleasurably cum more than 2 or 3 times a week. Also I always tended towards having manboobs, so I wonder if I've got an oestrogen imbalance or something. My testosterone levels were on the lower end of the normal range, nothing alarming though.

Anyway, that's enough oversharing for now! But, just in your opinion, do you think all that I've described sounds like it could be the mental manifestations of a physical, urological problem? Or is it psychological trauma that happens first and causes problems in sexual function?

>>36767

fucking obivous solution there mate

start smoking

>>36580

I see it as just tapping into your feminine/ taboo side.

Being emasculated is about the worst offense for most guys, and sissification is all about that. I look at it like I am surrenduring to just pure hedonistic, primal sexual desires.

Sure, it's a hardcore fetish but it doesn't have to dictate how you act outside of that fetish. It is possible to tap into two different personas, i.e. your usual, masculine, dominant public persona, and your feminine, submissive, slutty persona.

I have not dressed up out in public (wouldn't pass in a million years), but I have done some gay shit in the past, even before getting introduced into sissy/ femdom porn. Maybe that is an advantage for me because I don't have that huge barrier, maybe it just means I'm bi.

The bottom line is it doesn't really matter as long as you don't let it control your emotions and general outlook. That's when you need to stop, or reevaluate your life.

Bear in mind that actual transsexuals, ones who have surgeries and take hormones and actually believe they were never born in the right body, have an extremely higher suicide rate than the general population. Gender dysphoria is real and it is a major disorder. Maybe you always had that, maybe it's all in your head, and maybe you're not able to compartmentalize your sexuality as well as you thought you could.'

Hope that helps.

>>36580

Worrying about mental health while not having complex delusions and/or auditory/visual hallucinations is such a neurotic thing to do.

>>36673

>10 commendments

you fell for that peterson memebook or something?