>>363256
I have been living in a sort of oblivious hell for the last few years. A directionless, unmoving timeless void that sucks the life energy out of me.
I didn't have a purpose in my life, untill recently.
I repeat the same cycles, but I do not achieve anything and always start again.
I have become degenerate over time.
But over the last months I managed to quit all my fetishes without any problems. I know that they were never a part of me. They were not the real me in the same way as the black cancer covering the smoker's lung is only the poison that has corrupted his natural state.
I was never able to find my purpose in religion, but recently I finally was able to embrace my race. The hope for a traditional family life with a good wife set a way point in my life.
The determination to save my own race and country. To save it from its destruction and to forever lose it to oblivion gives me a drive. I know that I am on the right side of history, because if we do not win, then there won't be another page for us in the history books.
I am not ready right now, that is all I can say, but I will be.