>Workout with fit and studying to get into the military.
>Have a GF for 3 years and living together.
>GF went on vacation and finally have place to myself for first time in years.
>Smoke some weed,get comfortable on bed.
>Feel a tad aroused
>Since I'm home alone, why not have fun with myself.
>Try to turn upside down, asshole feel nice from breezy air.
>Douche myself since getting kinky
>Get on bed in doggy style position.
>Finger myself
>Meh, kinna painful but bear with it
>Insert Dildo,still bearing with it
>Bite pillow, this is humiliating, why am I doing this
>Going into deeper sorrow while trying to fuck myself
>I guess this is what rape feel like
>Start imagine military guys taking turn forcing themselves into me.
>Pain starting to go away
>It feel good, like really good
>Lay hand under penis just in case
>Cum starting to leak and cum every time I penetrated
>Fuck, I'm actually coming?
>Finishing up and checking if it is actually cum
>Yes it is, all slippery
>Begin rub myself all over it
>Slowly getting out of trance
>Noticed dick was not hard the whole time
>First ever prostate orgasm
>Flash back when I was very sexual in hs and prostitute myself on CL
>No, not this again
>Dwell in more sorrow afterward
Bloody hell, was that a sissygasm? This is bad, I'm a 5'2 Asian who already want to be a trap, being able to cum from just being fuck in the ass is going to make it even harder if I get accepted being in the military. My sex drive is ever increasing with more cardio I been doing, how do I control myself in the military?
I'm very introverse and rarely go out to social event, I get aroused at the smallest thing. I also say very suggestive thing when I'm nervous talking with other. I have the tedency to get aroused at people who are in authority and more than one announce my love to them(As I did to my marriaged male history teacher). I guess I'm asking for life advice while being in military as I assume there are a lot of cute guys living together. I want to serve my nation but my feminines self is making it hard to not suck dick.