/cuteboys/ - Boypussy

You know they're being serious. The problem is that you don't feel good about yourself so their compliment doesn't hold any weight.

If you feel bad about your body type then what kind of body type do you want?

>>285674

Anon, you are the most important person in your life. And I'm not even saying that in a narcissistic way. You gotta be happy with yourself before you can feel good about what others say.

I don't know what you need to be happy; that is entirely your business. But I can say that you shouldn't be afraid to treat yourself, assuming you have the budget for it. Find whatever you want to do to make yourself full and do it.

I just wish I wasn't gay.

And why would anyone like you, buddy boy?

>>285674

Are you me? ;-;

well except for the bi-curious part. I'm a flaming homo.

>>285674

You gotta work on liking yourself. It's a mix of being happy with who you are, and attempting to improve who you are. Figure out exactly what you don't like about yourself, and try to either improve those aspects or challenge them when they pop up.

Therapy can provide you with tools for dealing with the latter.

Challenging your own way of thinking can seem difficult. After all, we're all stuck inside our own heads; we can't see any other perspectives as another would. But it is possible. Our brains is more of a collection of a multitude of voices, rather than a single one. Empowering the good ones while ignoring the others are essential for your well-being.

Rome wasn't built overnight, but you'll wake up one day and realize that you like being you if you work on it. I believe in you.

>>285674

What is it you don't like about yourself?

Body? Personality?

One thing I learned, and I don't claim to know alot, is that if you seek success to achieve happiness, that won't happen, you may be able to achieve the success you evisioned but you won't find the happiness you were looking for, i've been dealing with alot of conflicting thoughts these past years about what im really attracted to and what person I want to be, and it's fucking with me since I grew up in a very muslim household, and you know since then I've distanced myself from religion and now I don't have that imaginary safety landing that is called faith to something greater in the afterlife, so I wondered; how will I be able to accept myself since from now on I don't need the validation of others or some god.

Well, I don't have the answer, and I think everyone's answer to that is different, but one thing I know for certain, is that, you are stuck with what you prefer, be it sexually or otherwise, it doesn't make you worth less, it's by what you accomplish and by who you've helped in your path of healing and mending.

>Can any of you relate?

I haven't felt comfortable in my body since I started puberty, much less in any way attractive. My first pubic hairs offended me rather than making me feel proud. It feels (and often appears) like my body is slowly rotting off of my skeleton. Most days I am deeply disgusted by how I look. I am head-to-toe covered in hair and scars and pimples and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I have such sensitive skin that even attempts to shave or epilate result in infections and thus more scarring. I can count the flaws on my skin by the tens of thousands: several in every square inch. I have bad teeth, scruffy hair, a full beard that grows back to prickly stubble in mere hours, and have suddenly developed a bizarre genetic rash on my eyebrows and cheeks that makes it look like I have permanent patches of peeling sunburn. I'm about to hit 30, haven't had sex since high school, my metabolism is slowing and my skin is getting even more dry and more fragile. Nobody has called me cute in over a decade except for 16-year-old girls at work because they don't know any better.

So tell me again about those ten vanity pounds that have you so upset.

>>285674

I can super relate to you OP.

I'm a pretty social person and I can easily make a lot of new friends over the years. Although, as far back as puberty I've always had issues with self image. I'm overweight for my height, but people normally tell me my weight looks "average" and to not really worry about it. I suffer from a weird hormone thing where sometimes I have build of of hormones in my blood to toxic levels. Basically mostly DHT and something else I can't remember, that cause me to break out into acne and skin growths. Over puberty I spent time getting blood tests, taking hormone blockers to keep it at regulated levels and having skingrowths removed from my body.

I despise hair everyone on me that isn't my head. Its awful and I see it almost like a disease that needs to be removed, but some parts I can't trim or they will breakout in ingrowns. My condition leaves me with not a large amount of hair on my body, but it is patchy and scraggly. I've tried everything and it doesn't help. I've been in relationships before and people generally tend to be fine with it, but I'm not. The way I'm built, the way I look, I despise all of it. I can't look in the mirror without wanting to hang myself every morning. It's gets so bad sometimes that I can't even leave my house because seeing others happy just enrages me for not being able to empathize with them. I almost committed suicide when I was younger, but since then I've gone to college and I do believe that I at least contribute something to society through my work. Something like that helps me take pride in myself enough to offset the whole "suicide" thing, but it doesn't nullify how I feel every day.

Part of me honestly wants to get on HRT, but I'm too afraid I'll end up fucking myself even harder beyond repair, also the fact that I'm already on hormone blockers just to be at normal levels makes me fear my liver is gonna break down if I ever do go on HRT. Hormone blockers I'm on now already pass through my liver so I'd hate to have more pouring into me. I've tried to get into cahoots with the neighborhood, what I call, "tranny society" which is just a handful of FtMs whining and crying about how hard life is. Honestly, I'm terrified of going full tranny because I don't want to be associated with people like that. I'm a hard worker and I take pride in what I do. Those bitches are all just idiots wanting to relive their high school years as kawaii anime girls. I'm gay, but all the gays in the area are fucking liberal pussies who can't even talk about anything that isn't dance or fucking other men.

I'm slowly growing more seething and bitter every day, from the inside and outside, and I hide this all behind my self deprecating comedy so that even the people I know have no clue what is going on. Just please, someone erase me.

>>307614

Oooops I meant MtF in this post!

>>307614

You can pretty much just get an orchi and BAM, no more hormone blockers killing your liver, no more body hair, etc.

Literally just sounds like you're too scared to commit, your life sucks and you have heavy testosterone poisoning but you're afraid of the tumblr stigma that MtFs live with.

If you hate yourself so much, what's the worst that can happen if you pump yourself with HRT? Sounds like you're on a path to killing yourself down the line somewhere anyways.

>>315334

I can't imagine that. All this cute booty waving around in your face but you feel too guilty to indulge. Why can't you just grab a boy and fuck him and feel guilty afterwards?

>>315506

Sounds like you smothered him.

Too much lovey dovey compliments makes your affection worthless, honestly.

>>315512

Noted. I couldn't help it because he was my first boyfriend.

>>285674

I know this feeling well, I have confidence everywhere minus my body

It's like a crippling black hole that I can't find positivity in

>>315506

Hard to help those who you can't hold, right?

good luck

>>315506

You'll get over him anon, the first break up is always hard. But it should be pretty clear at this point how mentally imbalanced and unstable he is. Until he stops hating himself and accepts that he can be loved by someone else, he will not in any way, shape, or form be ready for a bf.

>>315506

People with low self worth find that overwhelming support very daunting, and quickly hide from it. It's a mindset of "how can they love me when I'm this garbage" and they think you're putting up a facade. Sharing deep personal struggles of your own is a good way to relate and bridge his gap.

>>315506

Alex sounds so much like me. Except instead of me blocking, it was my BF.

>>315506

Are you from minnesota?

>>315506

Aww

>>315506

What a dick.

>>285674

>be only son

>have awesome family tree and good father to look up to

>gay

>have a naturally cute and girly body

>hate my self deeply for killing my family name

>join the military to die as penance for my imperfection

>have asthma attack and get separated before i could die in battle

>embrace my feminine body because the love of my bf and support from people who think i'm cute are the only reason i have not left for syria to die killing midslimes.

>>345450

>know my father loves me

>afraid to come out that i might lose that love

in reality I know my father would love me no matter what

but I i know i will always feel like i failed him.

similar topic how do you fellow cut guys get over the self hatred of being circumcised

it makes me feel so inferior and violated

>>345454

looking at my dick makes me hate kikes

>>345455

you realize circumcision in america was started by some fundamentalist christian (the Kellogg's guy) not the jews, right?

>>345458

Christianity is kike 2.0 all Abrahamic religions are cancer.

>>285674

People want to fuck me and I usually don't understand why.

One of the most recent times I just corpsed out on the guy. I'm not really ashamed. Afaik I'm already dead.

>>345460

same i got a lot of followers and every guy i slept with says i'm really cute and hot but i hate my body

>>307614

dam i can relate to a lot of this beside the health problems

>>345459

alright i'll give you that one

>>315506

My greatest fear is that I'll do this, I don't hate my body now but I really don't like it.

>>346037

/fit here, there is no excuse for not getting fit.

get a bike and start riding, preferably a mountain bike with a light weight frame bought at an actual bike store. good name to look for is SHIMANO.

>>285674

>want to be cute

>only ever end up getting the attention of girls

Does this mean i'm too manly? Help!

>>366285

girls are also scared of meeting people, they are very visual and being approached by them doesn't normally happen if you're even mildly imposing, so i imagine they see you as one of their own. or at very least a big fag

>>285674

Let me cuddle the self-hate out of you anon

And come on runs with me so we can be fully non-gay fitness buddies

>>346037

The more continuous effort you put into being healthier, stronger, more masculine etc., the better you'll feel, right? So once you break into a good pattern, the easier it is to carry on and improve and you'll get into a positive cycle with less anxiety.

>but ____ make it difficult.

Take responsibility. It's more productive, a manly attitude to have, and feels liberating after a while. A change of attitude like this will always have to come before the other changes.

/unsolicitedadvice

>>285674

I hate myself too. It's pretty crippling and stops me from living life.

My bf tries to help by complimenting me all the time but it just doesn't register.

I think it's because I've never had that validation from other people outside of my bf. You say people think you're cute but that just doesn't happen with me. I secretly wish some stranger in public would flirt with me or something but it would never happen.

>>367066

Eh. Show me how you look and I might compliment it. Let's see!