e1298a No.2226804
best way to kill a thread is to post a new one
2b4796 No.2226805
>>2226790
I want to die, never speak another word, kill my roommate, and go back to sleep
e1298a No.2226806
>>2226805
why not kick her out if it sucks that bad
cd9dd9 No.2226808
>>2226801
hormones make it hard to drink :(
e1298a No.2226809
>>2226808
don't they mess with you if you try to smoke and drink?
cd9dd9 No.2226810
e1298a No.2226811
>>2226810
is it really bad?
cd9dd9 No.2226812
e1298a No.2226813
>>2226812
well I can't really say
cd9dd9 No.2226814
>>2226813
idk it killed whatever tolerance I used to have
e1298a No.2226815
>>2226814
well they say women have much lower tolerance than men so
cd9dd9 No.2226816
>>2226815
at least my lack of tolerance validates me then lol
cd9dd9 No.2226817
e1298a No.2226818
>>2226816
>>2226817
prolly from drinking
cd9dd9 No.2226819
>>2226818
nooo i had a really moving heart to heart with the guy I live with. It's complicated but he's legit.
cd9dd9 No.2226821
why are there 2 nekos :((((
2b4796 No.2226822
>>2226806
She's out of grace so the next thing to piss me off is it
a83c40 No.2226823
>>2226822
Wanna draw with me?
806370 No.2226824
>>2226820
That's just you.
e1298a No.2226825
>>2226819
oh well that sounds nice
were you guys fighting
4da05d No.2226826
>>2226821
>>2225232
>>2225233
>>2225237
>>2225238
e1298a No.2226827
>>2226821
memes
>>2226822
don't kill anyone
a83c40 No.2226829
cd9dd9 No.2226831
>>2226825
No, no. Not at all. There's just a lot of drama at this house and he keeps reminiscing and sharing his stories from the 70s and we're just bonding and I'm basically part of the family now which is more than my actual family considers me so it's heartwarming and weird and ughhhh. Emotional.
e1298a No.2226832
>>2226831
It's nice to belong somewhere
cd9dd9 No.2226833
e1298a No.2226834
3ea286 No.2226838
>>2226835
You meme-ing seems like one of the least likely things ever.
a519fd No.2226842
>>2226838
That's almost a compliment.
3ea286 No.2226843
>>2226842
You're just too autistic to make jokes.
a519fd No.2226844
>>2226843
I know. That's why I said ALMOST a compliment.
8bd7c8 No.2226845
I come for intimate relations with strangers for the sole purpose of self-destruction.
3ea286 No.2226846
>>2226844
How is that even possibly a comment?
a519fd No.2226847
>>2226846
I hate the opposite end of the spectrum hah, those who only meme.
Being far removed from that isn't too bad.
>>2226845
You're in the right place.
3ea286 No.2226848
>>2226847
You're on the high end of the spectrum, alright.
8bd7c8 No.2226849
>>2226847
C-can you teach me?
a519fd No.2226850
>>2226848
The spectrum isn't a line. There's no high end.
Not getting into this though.
>>2226849
Grow feelings for someone, or even better: Don't, but believe you do. Do this for someone that has feelings for you, or with someone who doesn't yet, until they do have feelings for you.
Then after a while, realize you feel nothing. Play the rest out.
That's just one way though. Be creative.
3ea286 No.2226852
8bd7c8 No.2226853
>>2226850
But I do that in real life already....
14b0b3 No.2226854
Everything about summer feels horrible.
When is this shit season over?
a519fd No.2226855
>>2226853
Then what are you coming here for?
a83c40 No.2226856
>>2226854
Summer is the best season. You think otherwise because all cool kids love it.
14b0b3 No.2226857
>>2226856
You have shit opinions.
Summer is the retarded brother of Spring, and saying otherwise is like saying that you're a masochist.
The heat forces you to wear less clothing, which puts higher pressure on seeming conventionally attractive through sheer physicality. It requires exponentially more maintenance to keep basic hygiene - hair constantly gets fucked unless it's super short and constantly trying to will yourself from not sweating for the sake of your clothing or make up. Not to mention you have to keep yourself hydrated much more if you even want to walk outside.
Everything is just so much more tedious, and even the so called cool kids hate it. Unless you're a fucking beach freak that is. Over half of those people only like summer so they have a reason to see the opposite sex mostly naked anyway.
f30865 No.2226858
>>2226852
Let's arm wrestle irl
Winner gets to buttfuck the loser
>>2226854
Hopefully it'll be freezing soon
a83c40 No.2226859
>>2226857
You made my point for me: you can't take it because you can't compete.
f30865 No.2226860
That was a really slow reply
I'm high and I was trying to remember how to burn a disc
8bd7c8 No.2226861
>>2226855
Because I don't like being in in the world where I break the hearts of all the girls.
f30865 No.2226862
Images aren't showing up in thread for me now
8chan is bad, I did something wrong, or both
14b0b3 No.2226863
>>2226859
Oh right, you caught me checkmate.
It's the same reason I hate clubs you know, I just can't compete. Those darn dance halls are actually something I envy over.
>>2226858
God willing.
a519fd No.2226864
>>2226862
>I did something wrong
This.
>>2226861
Fair enough. Good thing there's no girls here then.
Enjoy.
Goodnight people. Just realized I have to be up in less than 4 hours. Whoops.
a83c40 No.2226865
>>2226863
Go read manga in the library and hide in your hoodie, loser.
3ea286 No.2226866
Only communists hate summer, the most American of seasons.
14b0b3 No.2226867
Says the commie socialist
3ea286 No.2226868
Says the one literally from two different communist shitholes.
14b0b3 No.2226869
Says the one that literally disavows his own heritage
8bd7c8 No.2226870
I can quite honestly say I hate both summer and commies. Living in the desert will do that to you.
cd9dd9 No.2226871
tfw you can't stop cummin
cd9dd9 No.2226872
8bd7c8 No.2226873
a83c40 No.2226874
No one else is allowed to be anon when I'm around.
Where's Test?
3ea286 No.2226875
>>2226869
You actually do. You hate the fact you're both a spic and half other undesirable.
f30865 No.2226876
>>2226863
Hopefully republicans like u didn't cause too much global warming for winter to be cold this year
>>2226864
I reloaded and it's fine
Turns out I can do no wrong but maybe my computer was a little bit mad about me using it for caveman technology
Sleep well ♥
d9b332 No.2226877
posting from Hell
what's up my negroes?
3ea286 No.2226878
3ea286 No.2226879
I can't even remember who said that now.
3ea286 No.2226880
>>2226877
Whoa, whoa. That's racist. We have proud African American posters here that will chimp out whenever they can play the race card politely ask you to stop.
f30865 No.2226882
>>2226877
"Which way I fly is Hell; myself am Hell;
And, in the lowest deep, a lower deep
Still threatening to devour me opens wide,
To which the Hell I suffer seems a Heaven."
Smonking weed and listening to nigger music, u?
f30865 No.2226883
I think Dazel said "ropes of cum" but I don't know in what context he would have said it? Did someone cyber Dazel?
14b0b3 No.2226884
>>2226875
I don't hate where my family came from, but I take pride in their accomplishments and new identity as American.
You want to forget that your "N"x great-grandfather that served as a confenderate that fought.
cd9dd9 No.2226885
a83c40 No.2226886
>>2226877
But he's not posting.
8bd7c8 No.2226887
>>2226881
What has you so worked up?
f30865 No.2226888
Guys don't tell him but sometimes I can't help but think about hot gooey Wish cummies shooting out on my tongue
d9b332 No.2226889
>>2226880
*that's racist my nigga
>>2226882
nice!
i'm babysitting my brother and doing homework from Hell
>>2226886
hmm?
3ea286 No.2226890
>>2226884
All four of my grandparents came from families that fought in the confederacy and owned slaves. I'm not ashamed of that.
a83c40 No.2226891
Tsuchi, you were a Fortnite streamer in my dream, but I couldn't really judge you because you made bank.
cd9dd9 No.2226892
>>2226887
My Master.
I'm better now^^ Felt like forever in la-la land :3c
3ea286 No.2226893
I will never play Fortnite nor stream because I have some sense of self-respect.
14b0b3 No.2226894
>>2226890
>I want all the monuments to the confederate soldiers taken down
>It's a dark stain in my family history
>They've been disavowed by basically everyone in my family including myself
Totally
a83c40 No.2226895
cd9dd9 No.2226896
Fortnite was cool Seasons 1-3
3ea286 No.2226897
>>2226894
I have issue with shitskin Irish and others fleeing from the north who took up the mantle of "southern pride" and erected monuments in the 20th century.
a83c40 No.2226898
>>2226893
I mean I couldn't believe it in my dream until you linked me your twitch account. Shit was surreal.
f30865 No.2226899
>>2226889
What kind
I bet u wish you had literal homework from Hell and that it was just a list of gay sins you have to commit
cd9dd9 No.2226900
>shitskin Irish
w-well hold on a minute
sorry for the railroads x_x
cd9dd9 No.2226901
<I bet u wish you had literal homework from Hell and that it was just a list of gay sins you have to commit
Best homework ever tbh
14b0b3 No.2226902
>>2226897
>Other people like my grandparents so I have to turn against my grandparents to remain cool
Oh right I get it now. You're like some sort of meta-hipster.
d9b332 No.2226903
>>2226895
Dead. I killed him.
With cuddles.
>>2226899
Humanities and English
gonna be looking at my accounting homework too for the hell of it
that sounds fun ^^
make me a list satan~
3ea286 No.2226904
The Irish and Italians were (rightfully) viewed as dregs upon their arrival and now are the ones screeching most about "white pride" when they're so far down the ladder.
>>2226898
The fact you are dreaming of me creeps me out.
>>2226902
Almost all of my ancestry predates the nation. I take some pride in that. I loathe the dregs that think they've climbed up any rungs of the ladder.
a83c40 No.2226905
>>2226903
I just wish I could have confessed to him before you took his life.
cd9dd9 No.2226906
a83c40 No.2226907
>>2226904
I fell asleep right after posting. You weren't the only one in it.
8bd7c8 No.2226908
>>2226892
Sounds like all sorts of fun. Anywho, don't mean to say hi and b ye so quickly, but I'm gonna go pass out. Be good, lass.
f30865 No.2226909
>>2226903
At least it's not advanced math then
Sure I will if you want
>>2226901
Is this a service u guys need me to provide
a83c40 No.2226910
cd9dd9 No.2226911
>>2226908
fine be that way
>>2226909
I get into my own gay hijinks on my own thanks. Nezi's the pussy who might need help.
a83c40 No.2226912
d9b332 No.2226913
>>2226905
Oh I meant I killed him metaphorically.
His heart still beats.
>>2226909
I mean I got a 97 in College Algebra.
3ea286 No.2226914
>>2226907
Seek professional help. And in more ways than just getting your dick inverted.
f30865 No.2226915
>>2226911
I can see why subs would like the idea
>>2226913
Not sure I consider that advanced
a83c40 No.2226916
>>2226913
Get him here, please.
14b0b3 No.2226917
>>2226904
Does that include your own family from the 1860's that you've disavowed.
For someone that hates blacks, you seem happy enough that your family lost to them.
cd9dd9 No.2226918
>>2226915
I like getting tasks so I can't disagree~
d9b332 No.2226919
>>2226911
>Nezi's the pussy who might need help.
wow mean
i'll have you know i confessed to someone a while ago and got let down easy
>>2226915
eh, good enough.
I've taken trig and precalc in high school, As in those
math is easy to me, I just don't enjoy it
>>2226916
For a price.
a83c40 No.2226920
>>2226914
What mental illness is dreaming about you indicative of?
a83c40 No.2226921
f30865 No.2226922
>>2226918
A good housewife
>>2226919
Calculus is suffering
d9b332 No.2226923
>>2226921
Reveal your identify with proof.
>>2226922
It can be a bit obnoxious, yeah.
a988b5 No.2226924
You fuckers have any podcasts you listen to? My backlog has officially run dry and I need shit to listen to at work.
a83c40 No.2226925
14b0b3 No.2226926
>>2226924
Anything with Dan Carlin
d9b332 No.2226927
a83c40 No.2226928
bdc1d6 No.2226929
I used to enjoy the Baited! podcast.
d9b332 No.2226930
>>2226928
Post a new pic of bike(s).
f30865 No.2226931
>grr
The anon is Luka
CONFIRMED
cd9dd9 No.2226932
>>2226919
sounds like an anime episode tbh
but at least it wasn't harsh^^
>>2226922
sh-shuddup x_x
f30865 No.2226933
I use CD's I'm a 90's kid
a988b5 No.2226934
>>2226926
>history shit
>a few hours long apiece
I might refrain from murdering you on the day of the rope because of this.
f30865 No.2226935
>>2226932
Why? Don't you like how I treat you? ^^
d9b332 No.2226936
>>2226932
I'd rather harsh.
They basically said 'yes' and then just never followed through.
I like yes/no answers, not "sure haha....."
d9b332 No.2226937
Either that or it really was a yes and I'm just retarded but
It didn't seem like it was gonna happen
14b0b3 No.2226939
>>2226934
It's honestly great.
I have over an hour commute a day - even in best traffic - and so he helps me pass the time.
a83c40 No.2226940
>>2226937
Have you spoken to them since?
d9b332 No.2226941
>>2226940
Yes.
I'm going on the assumption of "that was a bad idea so let's go back to things being normal"
a988b5 No.2226942
>>2226939
I have a lot of dead time if everything is going smoothly so even when I find something like 3 hours long I'm into there's the mild disappointment knowing it might span a quarter of my shift with liberal amounts of pausing.
cd9dd9 No.2226944
>>2226935
Allegedly .///.
>>2226936
>>2226937
after a "sure" you make the plans then and there and YOU follow up dummy.
>>2226941
assumptions are bad, mmkay
d9b332 No.2226945
>>2226944
I did make plans. Multiple times, they kept dodging me.
Which is why I was pretty damn sure it was a soft no.
a83c40 No.2226946
>>2226941
You're gonna let life slip through your fingers with that attitude. Stop wasting your youth on being so cautious.
a83c40 No.2226947
d9b332 No.2226948
>>2226946
Yeah well I don't want to come off as a creep.
At some point you have to accept the loss.
a83c40 No.2226949
>>2226948
Anyone else on your mind?
cd9dd9 No.2226950
maybe they have daddy issues and like a creepy arthritic dude
14b0b3 No.2226952
>>2226942
During my actual work time I'm mostly busy, but the drive is when I listen to the most stuff.
Hardcore history is great, but he only drops a podcast once every few months. Also he only keeps his newest shit on the free podcast app. Most of the other episodes you have to buy if you weren't already keeping up with him.
He also does a podcast called common sense about political shit. I think there is more of that for free to listen to currently, but it's also shorter. Like only 45 mins to an hour a piece.
d9b332 No.2226953
>>2226949
Well tracer is straight so no, not many opportunities lately.
But I'm doing a lot better now that I'm out of depression and I'm motivated to do things. There will be opportunities.
I'd be even more motivated if I wasn't diseased/crippled right now.
Hard to imagine anyone wanting to put up with that.
>>2226950
Being pretty harsh tonight fam.
cd9dd9 No.2226954
cd9dd9 No.2226955
a83c40 No.2226956
>>2226953
What about girls? Don't miss out on half the population.
d9b332 No.2226957
>>2226954
I meant that I prefer straightforward in that situation, even if it means being mean.
You're just being mean for no reason.
>>2226956
Maybe something will happen though school.
I mean that's how I got laid the first time.
I don't know many girls, I find a lot of them annoying. My best friend/childhood friend is a gay female, for example.
cd9dd9 No.2226958
>>2226957
I was being hopeful on your behalf tbh
Like you won't know unless you actually try. No assuming, just swing for it cause you won't know otherwise.
807920 No.2226959
I'm still fucked up over Nezi calling me a shy boy last night.
a83c40 No.2226960
>>2226957
>annoying
Almost seems like you're looking more for intimate friends than just a relationship.
What do you find so annoying about them?
a988b5 No.2226961
>>2226959
>not just herniating yourself laughing at Nezi at every chance
pussy
d9b332 No.2226962
>>2226958
I swung for it. I didn't want to overshoot and end up in traffic.
Perhaps next time I'll go that far for the hell of it but I'm a fairly shy person as it is, I don't like to bother people and I usually assume people don't like me.
But I'm doing a lot better confidence/motivation-wise since I got out of depression.
Things may change, I am changing for the better in all kinds of ways this year.
>>2226959
Twas a joke.
>>2226960
I'd be okay with either, I'm not particular to one or the other.
Some girls are normal and nice.
Some girls are into makeup, dressing up, having their guy pay for everything and take them out to nice dinners, etc.
I like girls that are normal human beings and don't have a princess mentality.
That stuck up, 'please take care of me' attitude is the biggest turn off.
65c2c6 No.2226963
>>2226961
i forgot if Nezi was the one who posted the penis that was small but that would explain all the esports stuff
807920 No.2226964
>>2226961
>
>>2226962
I know. My aggression last night was also just for show.
d9b332 No.2226965
>>2226964
Yeah, just clarifying.
cd9dd9 No.2226966
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d9b332 No.2226968
it's at least 5
false news
cd9dd9 No.2226969
weren't you asking about his donger pic?
a988b5 No.2226970
>>2226963
Does that mean he's gonna shoot up a madden tourney or something?
d9b332 No.2226973
I don't even play video games anymore.
807920 No.2226974
>>2226971
Now now. You're making it hard to not go back and recap Hakubi.
And I really don't want to watch that mess of a show again.
a83c40 No.2226975
>>2226962
One day you will learn that galko sluts are a man's best friend. "Nice" girls with "wholesome" personalities and "sincere" interests are the worst whores of all. Bimbos actually care about men on some level, even if they're vain, self-absorbed and gaudy. The thing about nice girls is that they're fake. They're just like the bimbos except they're dishonest about it, because they don't care that they're lying to you.
65c2c6 No.2226976
>>2226969
that is why i said "elma that's so low"
a988b5 No.2226977
>>2226974
Kekkaishi wasn't that bad- Mediocre at best but not worse than the moeshit that saturates the web these days.
65c2c6 No.2226979
>>2226970
Nezi at least has better taste than to go to a real fake sports game tournament
d9b332 No.2226980
>>2226975
So what you're saying is all females are shit.
Guess I need me a trap gf then :^)
cd9dd9 No.2226981
d9b332 No.2226982
sports video games are dumb
they're for normies
65c2c6 No.2226983
>>2226972
I always forget about that old penis generator
d9b332 No.2226984
807920 No.2226985
>>2226977
I have watched maybe 3 animes in the last year that I actually liked.
a988b5 No.2226986
>>2226979
*a Fortnite tourney
There, fine, fixed it- Happy now?
807920 No.2226987
>>2226983
Back in the "glory days".
a83c40 No.2226988
>>2226980
Don't get me started on the gays and trannies, Nezi. They're just as neurotic as women. What you need is 2d.
807920 No.2226989
>>2226984
Is it EA that makes the basketball games?
I hear they are asking people in ?Belgium? to ask the government to allow them to sell loot boxes there.
65c2c6 No.2226990
>>2226986
yea because he wouldn't rather shoot himself than try clawing his way up the fortnite ranking charts
a988b5 No.2226991
>>2226985
Yeah, finding good gook cartoons is an exercise in futility.
807920 No.2226992
Do what I do and play dead games with little to no contest for top slots.
>>2226991
I mean, there's a lot of them, but a lot more shit to slog through.
a988b5 No.2226993
>>2226990
He's one of those types who has nothing but disposable time and sped tier commitment to nerd shit that's popular with the kids these days so why not?
d9b332 No.2226994
>>2226988
Oh shit you're Wish aren't you
>>2226989
That one was 2K Games.
They're just as shit.
Yeah I laughed at that.
65c2c6 No.2226995
>>2226993
I mean Fortnite does have really cool dances in it.
a988b5 No.2226996
>>2226995
God I fucking hate nerds so damn much.
807920 No.2226997
>>2226994
The fuck is 2K even thinking?
a83c40 No.2226998
>>2226994
Just watch the faggots in this very thread, need I say more?
807920 No.2226999
Said Dallas.
Posting anime.
d9b332 No.2227000
>>2226998
By that logic I must be shit too.
And I don't really believe that anymore.
And no, I don't think most people here are shit.
a988b5 No.2227001
>>2226999
Hey nigger; I'd rather be racing!
a83c40 No.2227002
>>2227000
Honestly, I'm just trying to help you rationalize your inability to connect with others and form meaningful, intimate relationships.
807920 No.2227003
>>2227001
Please. You're embarrassing me in front of my friends.
65c2c6 No.2227004
a988b5 No.2227005
>>2227003
A trend likely to continue.
807920 No.2227006
>>2227005
WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS
65c2c6 No.2227007
goodnight everyone have fun sperging out on each other
a988b5 No.2227008
>>2227006
I am a monument to all your sins~
17bb3b No.2227010
807920 No.2227011
>>2227008
And you were shit talking nerds so you drop that line?
d9b332 No.2227012
>>2227002
I fail to connect to others because I'm much smarter and boring than most normal people, and I have different interests.
I'm shy and quiet.
I don't speak much in conversations, I try to only contribute when I have something meaningful to say. This leads to lots of quiet moments unless we're having a discussion about something in particular.
I'm sure there are a select few that would like a boring, quiet person like me.
But it will be hard to meet someone who likes that sort of thing.
I'm' going to keep improving myself and focusing on that, hopefully something good relationship-wise will happen naturally.
a988b5 No.2227013
>>2227011
Had to google it and everything huh, darlin~?
807920 No.2227014
Smart people don't use apostrophes after "I'm", Nezi. Super baka.
d9b332 No.2227016
>>2227014
Typo due to being tired. Bed soon.
It's more important to know the difference.
807920 No.2227018
>>2227017
Yeah yeah. Love you too...
a83c40 No.2227019
>>2227012
I think it's more of a matter of you having an undeveloped personality. You need to put yourself in a variety of situations outside of your comfort zone to actually figure out who are. Right now you're a blob of potential, and that's icky.
d9b332 No.2227020
>>2227019
You're probably right.
I was growing and developing until I turned 18 and then I wasted almost 5 years in depression & suicidal thoughts.
I'm working on it though, I want to be the best me, and the best person I can.
I'm not sure where things will take me but, I'm going to do my best.
Good night.
a83c40 No.2227021
807920 No.2227022
Nobody stays up late anymore.
a83c40 No.2227023
Wanna stay up late texting each other?
807920 No.2227024
Who the fuck even are you?
a83c40 No.2227025
I just want to be your friend, Squash.
Good night.
14b0b3 No.2227026
>>2227022
People are still up late
aa2b37 No.2227027
my ears are hot !!! u know what that means
aa2b37 No.2227028
it means people were talking about me >:3c
807920 No.2227029
TELL ME WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE THEN
>>2227026
Nobody I can sit in call with though.
aa2b37 No.2227030
squash,,,, Im about to sleep but can you please bite my flesh open before i do
14b0b3 No.2227032
>>2227029
Call Tsuchi.
My headset died, and he's waiting for me while I put away some dry clothing.
807920 No.2227033
The pain from that will hurt more than any bite.
>>2227032
I don't have him on anything and talking to him in call sounds awful.
4aa882 No.2227035
>>2227034
That's why you don't do acid alone
aa2b37 No.2227036
:((((
why does everyone attractive in this thread have a denial fetish
LAME !!!!! (not really lame;;;; i just never get bitten....)
GOODNIGHT
ae89d2 No.2227037
ill keep that in mind cato
807920 No.2227038
807920 No.2227040
>>2227039
*Monches lightly*
f30865 No.2227041
>>2227036
-bites into your neck hard- Night ^^
f30865 No.2227042
Great now Grim is going to beat me for cheating on him again
410b7e No.2227043
>>2227040
i forget if green been is chill now or nah
I dont think so cuz they ignored me last time
>>2227042
get in your room
ill be there in 5
aa2b37 No.2227044
idk buddy but the past few months my taste in who im attracted to have changed
it used to be like. 80/20 girls boys
im sitting at like 90/10 boys girls
also ive come to terms with being sorta furry
NOT COMPLETELY but
i like a lot of the art
and i have a lot of furry friends who are cool
so you benefit from both of these changes trust me
17bb3b No.2227045
>>2227039
Did you remove all the weed yet?
aa2b37 No.2227046
>>2227041
myhhhhhhhhhh
night night !! ^^^^^^^
807920 No.2227047
>>2227043
I am entirely whatever about them.
>>2227044
Are you on drugs right now?
aa2b37 No.2227048
>>2227047
no ?
grr !! did u think my recent relatively horny remarks were made in jest ?
f30865 No.2227050
410b7e No.2227051
>>2227045
yes. it took me only 40mins.
>>2227048
hello are you still ignoring me
>>2227047
idk
like
it all depends what direction they wanna go iguess.
17bb3b No.2227053
>>2227051
Might as well go for the outfit too now~
aa2b37 No.2227055
yes i am on estrogen
but the attraction changes happened before E
its only amplified my cocklust
410b7e No.2227057
>>2227052
Good. I'm going to leave you with red marks by the time I'm done with you.
/s
807920 No.2227058
>>2227048
I take all sexual advances here in jest.
I am not exactly attracted to many of you.
>>2227051
I can't be fucked to fight with many people at any given time so I just go with it.
410b7e No.2227060
>>2227059
10x?
>>2227058
you will carry pups to term
one day
f30865 No.2227061
>>2227055
You're so cute
>>2227056
-slaps your butt-
>>2227057
Is "/s" like a tag for lewd posts to show that you're serious
aa2b37 No.2227062
>>2227058
fair and fair
cute doggy
pet pet
gn !
410b7e No.2227063
>>2227061
it means sarcasm
memes
aa2b37 No.2227064
>>2227061
the cutermerest !!!!!
3ea286 No.2227065
>>2227058
>I am not exactly attracted to many of you.
>to many
4aa882 No.2227066
>>2227061
Hey, that's lewd!
807920 No.2227067
>>2227060
Until then I just have to keep trying.
410b7e No.2227070
>>2227069
respond to my FUCKING SNAPS
how u been tho
im hella tired
need to be up in 7h
think ill make 1more post then gtfo
>>2227067
u got this
4aa882 No.2227071
I'd a squash
maybe
>>2227069
f30865 No.2227072
>>2227063
U were afraid of ur own gay meme and had to do a disclaimer
>>2227064
-pets you- ♥
>>2227066
So?
>>2227069
Is this 10X
If that's a shirt u'd wear then probably
807920 No.2227073
>>2227070
You realize I have to fuck dogs still if I wanna have puppies, right?
>>2227071
Not for fucks.
ae89d2 No.2227074
>>2227070
ooooff sorry I stopped using snapchat once I got insta
I’ll jump back on tho n response u with a snap
>>2227071
cato ^^
>>2227072
yes hi it me
how’s ur night going?
14b0b3 No.2227075
>>2227033
Your lost. We were talking about FDR's incestuous relationship with his cousin.
410b7e No.2227076
>>2227072
>
night 4m
btw
I knew you when you used 4m in your trip or name or w/e
>>2227074
u fuckin bitch
lmfao
gn
take it ez
>>2227073
nah just fuck a werewolf or someth
807920 No.2227077
>>2227075
I-incest is...w-wrong...
Also I'm going to be playing games with my brother soon anyhow.
>>2227076
Be my werewolf daddy.
Let me carry your puppies.
410b7e No.2227078
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
I part with a gift of french loli vamp
ae89d2 No.2227079
>>2227076
yeah yeah yeah gn gn
4aa882 No.2227080
>>2227072
Exactly
>>2227073
Not even little ones?
>>2227074
water you up to?
Who sent you here?!
4aa882 No.2227082
>>2227081
What about for beers?
f30865 No.2227083
>>2227074
I'm super baked and I keep feeling my muscles and getting turned on by myself
u?
>>2227076
Not when I just had a tripcode as a name
Goodnight newfaf ♥
>>2227080
Subby boi
807920 No.2227084
>>2227082
I don't drink beer.
I only drink hard liquor.
4aa882 No.2227086
>>2227083
Depends on who you ask
>>2227084
Same here
But 'lets go out for beers' is the common phrase for poor grad students
807920 No.2227087
>>2227086
I don't drink in public.
ae89d2 No.2227088
>>2227080
just laying around and I sent myself!
who sent u.....
>>2227083
yeah I get that sometimes too,can’t help it we’re just too hot :^)
I’m baked outta my tree too rn
d9b332 No.2227089
fucking rich people smh
king bed
huge bathroom with tile and glass shower
all the appliances are brand new with touch controls
expensive mercedes
this bitch spends way too much money
807920 No.2227090
If you earn the money then it seems reasonable to spend it in whatever way you want.
807920 No.2227091
It isn't like money has functions other than being spent.
d9b332 No.2227092
>>2227090
She did not earn it.
She has not worked in 40 years.
807920 No.2227093
>>2227092
Where does it come from?
d9b332 No.2227094
>>2227093
Alimony. She makes more money than most people ever dream of.
To sit at home and do fuck all every day.
807920 No.2227095
>>2227094
Maybe have some kids.
d9b332 No.2227096
>>2227095
That sounds like a bad idea, at least one is bound to be a bisexual autistic weeb cripple
14b0b3 No.2227097
The Necronomicon has a lot of words that's hard to say.
d9b332 No.2227098
4aa882 No.2227100
>>2227087
Dont gotta hang out in public
>>2227088
uhm
>It didnt post
well shit
807920 No.2227101
>>2227100
Well I'm not inviting people over.
4aa882 No.2227102
I'll bring board games, it'll work out
d9b332 No.2227107
boring is my middle name
actually it's very lewd and funny but only people that meet me irl can know it
4aa882 No.2227109
>>2227107
I did that thing!
ab7256 No.2227110
d9b332 No.2227111
ab7256 No.2227112
>>2227111
dunno fam, sounds like a fun time to me
d9b332 No.2227114
ab7256 No.2227115
>>2227114
there are many ways to have a fun time man, im also kinda curious as to that middle name now
d9b332 No.2227116
>>2227115
you'll have to fuck it out of me
ab7256 No.2227117
>>2227116
well that could be arranged
think you could handle 2 at once?
ab7256 No.2227120
2b4796 No.2227121
>>2227120
I'm bad at pictures but it's in the middle of my shoulder blades
And there's a lot of it because I haven't gotten it cut in months
ab7256 No.2227122
>>2227121
is that longer than you usually have it? i typically go a few months between cuts myself
65c2c6 No.2227123
>>2227122
yea same like sometimes close to a year if i can get away with it
ab7256 No.2227124
>>2227123
well, last time i went nearly 3 years between cuts, but i think ill keep it shoulder length from now on
2b4796 No.2227125
>>2227122
Normally my parents try to force me to get my hair cut at least every couple months but it's the longest it's ever been right now
I wanted to have long hair as a kid but my parents were afraid of me looking too much like a girl
ab7256 No.2227127
>>2227125
"fuck off mom im not getting my hair cut"
just do it if you want to fam. i will say tho, hair can look worse longer than it does short. its pretty hard to make ass length hair look fluffy and not just a mess.
>>2227126
morning fort. and i thought i was up late today.
65c2c6 No.2227128
>>2227124
i cant do that i get curly jew hair
ab7256 No.2227129
>>2227128
the kind that produces an afro or the kind that produces cute curls at shoulder length?
a519fd No.2227130
I actually went to bed at my 8, because I had an appointment at 10, which I forgot. I overslept and was late, whoops.
ab7256 No.2227131
a519fd No.2227132
>>2227131
Dunno whether I should go to bed now or not. Didn't get two hours of sleep in.
2b4796 No.2227133
>>2227127
I mean I haven't had to listen to my parents in a while so I kind of just do what I want with my hair now but when I was little they would make me get haircuts and make it get cut short or just straight up shave my head
ab7256 No.2227134
>>2227132
persevere til the evening rolls around my dude, get into a proper habit.
>>2227133
every cut i had til i was 18 was a "short back and sides". god i looked fucking awful then.
gonna keep growing it or gonna get it trimmed?
a519fd No.2227136
>>2227134
That's my kind of advice.
Didn't know your sleeping was like this too.
a519fd No.2227137
>>2227135
That's good smug. Too bad she looks tired.
ab7256 No.2227138
>>2227136
when ive a lack of shit to do i tend to let myself slip a bit, been rolling out of bed at like 8:30 and its driving me up the wall. got work tomorrow though so ill be up at 7 at the latest.
a519fd No.2227139
>>2227138
Sounds like an adventure. I usually get out at 3, going to bed not TOO long after sunrise. But after sunrise still.
ab7256 No.2227140
>>2227139
wait, 3pm? jesus man you need to get it together.
a519fd No.2227141
>>2227140
3 in the afternoon. I can never remember whether that's AM or PM. PM, right?
So you're just joking around?
Don't make me *pat* at you, I'm too tired for this stuff lol.
ab7256 No.2227142
>>2227141
i meant getting up at 8am my dude, 8 in the morning. been used to getting up at 6am for ages and that 2 hour shift is fucking with when i feel like doing things.
2b4796 No.2227143
>>2227134
I might get it cleaned up but I plan to let it grow
ab7256 No.2227144
>>2227143
any particular length in mind?
a519fd No.2227145
>>2227142
Waiiiiiiiiiiiit. Now i understand.
Your first post at me:
>i thought i was up late today.
I thought you meant you were STILL UP. Like hadn't-gone-to-bed-all-night still up.
b0d55b No.2227146
how much news have you actually watched, qt? mainstream and less mainstream.
a519fd No.2227147
b0d55b No.2227148
ab7256 No.2227149
>>2227145
aah no, i just rolled out of bed late and now i feel lazy for it.
>>2227146
i read the headlines of the papers when i go shopping for a laugh, beyond that i dont. i just sub to a bunch of people whos current events content i never watch and read the titles and descriptions of their videos. im kinda burnt out on politics atm tbqh.
a519fd No.2227150
>>2227149
This makes way more sense.
Like I said "Didn't know your sleeping was like this too."
I have the 'worst' rhythm. I go to bed later than most Americans.
There is no shame in waking up at 8-friggin-thirty.
ab7256 No.2227152
>>2227150
its not shame man, its just my feeling like i dont wanna do anything. its part of the reason ive stayed in for the last 3 days and now i feel like ass for it.
thought of sorting that shit out at all man?
>>2227151
down to your shoulder blades, waist, hips, ass, buttocks?
a519fd No.2227153
>>2227152
Are you waking up 'late' because of that feeling, or are you feeling that way because of the sleeping?
I have no intentions whatsoever of fixing my sleeping.
ab7256 No.2227155
>>2227153
im waking up late because im going to bed late and ive little to get up early for. the knock on effect of that is i feel like going out later, which is after the sun goes down instead of when its nice and warm.
a519fd No.2227157
Not far enough.
>>2227155
>im waking up late because im going to bed late and ive little to get up early for.
I know this pattern. That's my pattern.
I advice you find something to wake up in the mornings for.
2b4796 No.2227158
>>2227157
Down past my ass?
a519fd No.2227159
>>2227158
Nono, >>2227156 is not far enough.
Go beyond.
Kidding aside, ass-long is already really hard to imagine for me.
Also cute Miku. I always like that one.
ab7256 No.2227160
>>2227154
>>2227156
i would advise stopping every few months to take a photo or two, and have you work out at which rough length you actually like it. when i actually stopped to take stock of things i found long hair actually detracted from my appearance.
>>2227157
might just make a point of having my morning coffee outside of the house or something at about 7am, would be nice.
b0d55b No.2227161
>>2227149
well, I consume a lot. from a variety of sources. some months more than others. my anxiety tells me to learn more to protect myself. anyways.
pretty sure I understood everything you were saying yesterday. the points you ultimately made were that:
- you felt we should judge leaders based on their actions, putting less emphasis on words that are obvious theatre
- the media can be generalized as a few top-down, Machiavellian, political party driven organizations
- Trump has been successful in achieving what his voters want, and pretty much has only failed the wall and wars
- Trump is being the blunt instrument the people want, attacking the media and all others on behalf of his people
- he is merely participating in politics, and what he does is to be expected of politics
and I said those were all either shallow, refusing to see the fuller picture, and more pieces of evidence. And if you'd watched more news, or just read more of his words and policies, you'd understand. Just his own fucking words. I am that convinced that the evidence is overwhelming and obvious. That he is far more scattered, selfish, and out of tune with what Americans want, let alone his own supporters. He is not a tool. He is not some instrument. He is Trump. A demagogue. Jelly of dictators. a poorly educated, easily fooled, fueller of fear and hate. and that view is more on target than yours seemed to be. invalidating your first accusation.
2b4796 No.2227162
>>2227160
I look weird anyway
a519fd No.2227163
>>2227160
If that works for you, great.
My bane is that waking up for something that... arbitrary ain't going to get morning-fort to get out of his damn bed.
ab7256 No.2227164
>>2227163
it aint about arbitrary, its about doing something i enjoy. mind you, ive got a nice bench with a view of the coast about half an hours walk from me thats great for what i want.
>>2227162
given what ive seen of you i doubt you cant get a long haircut that would suit you, its more a question of length.
b0d55b No.2227165
>>2226443
>>2226443
>>2226443
>>2226443
take it back
2b4796 No.2227166
>>2227164
The hair is eternal
The hair is unending
Give yourself unto the hair
a519fd No.2227167
Kanra, how old are you again? I was gonna ask after >>2227161 , I mean no offense or anything.
>>2227164
Doing that isn't arbitrary per se. Doing it at 7 is.
b0d55b No.2227168
>how old are you
24
>no offense or anything
...
ab7256 No.2227169
>>2227161
>you felt we should judge leaders based on their actions, putting less emphasis on words that are obvious theatre
not necessarily, in an ideal world you should but if your options are limited you generally have to take what you can get.
>the media can be generalized as a few top-down, Machiavellian, political party driven organizations
no, but there are observable phenomena at play which allow you to make some general statements about the most prominent media organisations.
>Trump has been successful in achieving what his voters want, and pretty much has only failed the wall and wars
somewhat, its not just the war itself that he failed at taking down but the state bodies that compel it.
>Trump is being the blunt instrument the people want, attacking the media and all others on behalf of his people
some people, the term "the people" in my opinion is a dangerous term to play loosely with. "his voters" would be a better phrase to use.
>he is merely participating in politics, and what he does is to be expected of politics
with the caveat that this is politics in its current form, im for a form of politics that really has only ever existed partially, and never truly been dominant except when propped up by this less pleasant form of politics.
im not keen on playing the consequentialist with trump either, but where men of virtue are hard to find sometimes you simply have to make do with what you can. i will recognise its a dangerous game though, and i sincerely hope he doesnt need a second term to fulfill his election promises and wrap up korea.
>>2227165
jesus fuck give me time to type you fucking gay
ab7256 No.2227170
>>2227166
the hair must be pruned for its own sake, to be kept within a mean of too short and too long to flatter my features.
>>2227167
7 is a great time to do it, cool but sunny.
2b4796 No.2227171
>>2227170
The hair will flow like blood from the stone
Give yourself to the hair
a519fd No.2227172
>>2227168
Since I was asking it just after >>2227165 it could have been taking the wrong way.
I thought someone said a while ago you were way younger, 20 or so, but I've always known you insofar you could even say I know you to be like you are, and that wouldn't make much sense if you were much younger.
ab7256 No.2227173
>>2227171
i had it touching the crack of my ass, i think ive been long enough to see it doesnt work for me.
a519fd No.2227174
>>2227170
Yeah, figured you'd say something like that. And that's fine. Hope that works for you.
ab7256 No.2227175
>>2227174
still man, you need to do something about that for your own sake, doesnt have to be what im doing but itll help you to be up at a normal time.
2b4796 No.2227176
>>2227173
I just want the world to end
ab7256 No.2227177
>>2227176
hair wont give you that, but it can make you look cuter
a519fd No.2227178
>>2227175
I have no reason to be up in the morning.
There's people I enjoy talking to at night.
I don't feel a need to change my ways until I have responsibilities in the mornign.
2b4796 No.2227179
>>2227177
Losing weight would make me look cuter
I want to be a skeleton again
b0d55b No.2227180
>>2227169
>there are observable phenomena at play which allow you to make some general statements about the most prominent media organisations.
first, you just admitted that your observance of media is more or less limited to headlines. second, generalizations should be purpose driven. how much detail you choose to leave in or take out for the sake of brevity should not bend or change the objective view.
in terms of hirearchy of generalizing, if I say something more detailed and reflective of the objective truth, that means my generalization is more accurate. and you have to defend why you're making a less accurate generalization.
we know why Trump does it. why he forgoes gradients. why he demonizes and glorifies. why everything has an exclamation mark. he feels he is so smart, his generalizations are of course going to be correct. he feels he observes reality so well that he can trust his own brain without research.
But let's stick on this topic. What makes an appropriate generalization. Yours seems arbitrary and overly selective, as to misrepresent the majority.
b0d55b No.2227181
>>2227172
yes. I'm an oldfag. started posting when I was just 17. back in the pony days. and now we're here. the animus days. the Trump days. the drop-out days.
a519fd No.2227182
>>2227181
I'm 24, and started at 17 too. That's exactly why I asked, because I thought you'd been around that long, and if you were 20, you'd have been 13 then, and that just doesn't hold up, so I figured I'd ask.
ab7256 No.2227183
>>2227178
thats a fair point. id maybe see about finding things to do irl tho, you cant be dependent on people online for fulfillment.
>>2227179
same, but with some muscle this time.
>>2227180
ill reply to this after lunch
2b4796 No.2227184
I don't want to be old I'm basically a child with responsibility
2b4796 No.2227185
>>2227183
No muscle
Being tiny made me happy
b0d55b No.2227186
>>2227182
it's been a long strange trip. but I'm glad this place is around. how's your September looking?
>>2227184
exercise is beneficial at every age.
a519fd No.2227187
>>2227183
>you cant be dependent on people online for fulfillment.
This is only half true.
But I wake up in the afternoon, when my friends are all around. It's not like I'm missing them in the morning much.
>>2227184
How relatable.
How old are ya?
ab7256 No.2227188
>>2227184
the worst part about getting old tbh is realising how fucking annoying young people are.
>>2227185
there is one dude who posts on a place i regular who is slightly muscular in the athletic sense but shredded and pretty damn femmy looking, i want his body.
>>2227187
fair point
im trying to spend less time online, but right now im failing pretty bad at it.
a519fd No.2227189
>>2227186
So am I. Even if I took a two year break, there's something about coming to this place and just talking here that just adds to everything else, for me.
I dunno what this month is going to bring. I'm starting therapy next week though. Looking forward to that. I'm curious.
>>2227188
I stopped seeing the need for that, as long as there's no real dependency on anything harmful or fleeting.
2b4796 No.2227192
>>2227187
25
>>2227188
I want to be fit but like not muscular just lean
I want to have bones sticking out like ribs spine and collarbone
For aesthetic reasons
a519fd No.2227193
>>2227190
Mornin' Mornin'
I'm wondering, how long have you been coming here for? Because I'm not usually up at this time, so you could've been around for weeks and I wouldn't have known.
ab7256 No.2227194
>>2227180
>first, you just admitted that your observance of media is more or less limited to headlines.
headlines, and whatever the content creators i actually watch put out on stuff of this sort. i skim a lot of tim pools stuff, but hes a mixed bag.
>second, generalizations should be purpose driven.
they are, in this case they serve to define a set of people who are opposed to another set of people on a topic of current political importance.
i dont need to know the exact details, that is beyond the scope of my concern. i need to know what the dividing line is, and what is generally responsible for it. im not looking to reform the media, im quite content to watch it crumble to dust and something new arise from the ashes. this is because ultimately either side seeks to destroy or subjugate the other side, there is no room for nuance in the conduct of war beyond that which is most beneficial to your side given your capabilities and constraints.
a519fd No.2227195
>>2227191
Mornin' Hu.
>>2227192
>I want to have bones sticking out like ribs spine and collarbone
To what extent? Like 'discernible', 'clearly visible' or even more?
2b4796 No.2227197
>>2227195
Clearly visible to prominent
ab7256 No.2227198
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>>2227192
well im not keen on placing too much faith in people i only know over the internet anymore tbh, id rather assume at at some point things will go tits up and i wont have invested too much in them.
>>2227192
i basically want this
b0d55b No.2227199
>>2227189
I'd like to see it stick around. therapy sounds nice. curious is a good frame of mind. but imo, therapy is overrated. when I was an anxious fireball of nerves, regular exercise and being busy with work all day made all those little neurotic repetitive thoughts disappear. eventually it'd be weeks without an anxious episode. like magic. like I'd been stuck all year hating myself and searching maddeningly for some way to feel relief. and it turns out being busy and physical has massive beneifts. so if you're not already doing that, do so.
like seriously, it's been almost a year since I've cried. don't underestimate the benefits of channeling your energy elsewhere. but do ignore me if none of this clicks. I just feel I've found my magic formula.
7188dc No.2227200
>>2227191
Now it's a party
What's up Hu?
>>2227193
I pop in once every few years it seems.
I literally found the fancy to poke my head in here yesterday evening in fact.
a519fd No.2227201
>>2227197
I've been there, not sure how long ago, and would be lying if I said I didn't kinda miss it.
At least the collarbone is still prominent.
>>2227196
Thanks thanks. I've slept way too little and woke up way to early to make it a good morning, though.
Hope you're doing better?
2b4796 No.2227202
>>2227198
More tits more ribs less muscle
a519fd No.2227203
>>2227200
Guess that's when I saw ya. Figured, but wasn't sure.
Think you'll stick around for a while?
7188dc No.2227204
>>2227203
I might, I tend to just fall of the radar randomly, because I'm socially inept though.
17bb3b No.2227205
>>2227200
>I pop in once every few years it seems
Sure seems it. Been around for a little more than a year now and this is the first time I've seen you, unless you've been posting anonymously like you are right now due to the namefield dropping
Am alright, just having the day off uni today.
How have you been?
>>2227201
Never felt bad, really, silly~
Having a good day so far?
ab7256 No.2227206
>>2227202
id kinda like that but with more upper body to contrast with the slim but toned waist. no real sensible reason to look like that but it would be nice aesthetically.
a519fd No.2227207
>>2227199
The current problem is that I can not currently hold any regular job. Chronic physical condition makes me have to stay home many days, but mental problems make me currently unable to do jobs with deadlines, which are most jobs one can do from home.
I'm not in any danger mentally, nor am I really tormented or anything. i just can't function, and I kind of need to start being able to function somewhat soon, because money is a thing.
I don't have much hopes for therapy, but if there's anything that can get me on track in limited time, this might be it.
2b4796 No.2227208
>>2227201
I've spent most of my life "underweight"
Eating disorders, medications, excessive cardio
It feels like being small has been taken away from me and the only exercise that doesn't make me want to disembowel myself is swimming so of course that's the one that's hardest to manage
I have a bike I live near a park but walking and biking make me want to amputate my legs in a metal shop
7188dc No.2227209
>>2227205
Didn't mean to namefield drop, that's just Clover being dogshit
I've been alright, been focusing on work and paying off depths and other intensely boring shit like that. And trying to get good at video games I guess.
ab7256 No.2227210
>>2227208
ride through somewhere pretty, it helps.
a519fd No.2227211
>>2227205
Good good.
Nothing much has happened today. I posted here and met with my therapist. (Well, we are starting next week)
Which I guess ain't baaaaad if it weren't for the little sleep.
>>2227204
That's fair. I do that too.
The trick is coming back. Which I guess you do. Could have it be a smaller gap though.
a519fd No.2227212
>>2227208
I'm sorry, how did being small get taken away from you?
I don't know what any physical activity does to your body. I'm assuming I should have been able to tell from that, but I can't.
2b4796 No.2227213
>>2227210
I have bone problems
Too much leg strain aggravates whatever has managed to be wrong with my shins for 11 years
17bb3b No.2227214
>>2227209
Trying to become good at videogames and working in order to pay off dept rarely goes hand in hard, or so I thought.
Least you've been alright, that's good
>>2227211
Should sleep more~
ab7256 No.2227215
>>2227213
shit yeah, nevermind then. any reason you dont swim anymore?
a519fd No.2227216
>>2227214
I forgot I had the damn appointment! Forgot I had to wake up at 10.
It was 6:30 when I realized... and 8 when I went to bed... and it takes me a while to get asleep.
2b4796 No.2227217
>>2227212
Except for swimming, I haven't found an exercise that doesn't cause me severe pain
Access to pools large enough to exercise in is locked behind memberships and operating hours
I'm mostly nocturnal because I'm antisocial and photosensitive
I'm poor because I can't get a good job
I can't finish school because I'm crazy and suicidal
I've spent the past 7 months trying to get my life in order but all I've gotten is desperately poor and a shitty roommate who makes me anxious, angry, and awake
b0d55b No.2227218
>>2227194
>they serve to define a set of people who are opposed to another set of people on a topic of current political importance.
generalizations should not define sets. that's moronic and backwards. sets should define generalizations. how and what you choose to filter from that set to reach your generalization should not be arbitrary. but you say it's not arbitrary.
>i need to know what the dividing line is, and what is generally responsible for it.
so do you look at a range of media sources, talking heads, channels, and voices, and you've discovered there's a dividing line? or are you searching for the dividing line, and you're putting the sources, talking heads, channels, and voices on either side of that line?
>there is no room for nuance in the conduct of war beyond that which is most beneficial to your side given your capabilities and constraints.
sorry, but this is utterly and totally pathetic. what the heck do you mean there's no room for nuance. reality is nuanced. reality is grey. how poorly read are you to think sides must be fought for faithfully and to the exclusion of DEPTH and NUANCE, when we have fucking centuries of generations of humans we know are retarded for having done the same? Are you so eager to be one of those retards?
There's a diffference between looking at reality through a hazy glass, and looking away from reality and trusting your imagination to have do a better job portraying reality. The hazy glass isn't satisfying. You can't see the lines in the sand. And you've just admitted you're someone that is pretty lazy, uncurious, and portrays this ongoing political stuff as a war with no room for nuance. You need to deal with the grey, confusing, mercurial state of reality. Dumb people need concrete overgeneralizations. You aren't one of them.
2b4796 No.2227219
>>2227215
Nowhere to swim
As long as I'm dying of pain and not asleep I could check out the neighborhood pool but it's like 10 m but also I'm dying of pain because sleep is a myth, my hip has been out of place for days, and I want to destroy my entire fucking house with a hammer and my halberd
b0d55b No.2227220
>>2227207
>Chronic physical condition makes me have to stay home many days
then eat less. you should try to get cardio, but if you can't, you shouldn't eat as much. you'll feel crummy.
>but mental problems make me currently unable to do jobs with deadlines
>i just can't function, and I kind of need to start being able to function somewhat soon
this was literally how I felt months ago. sorta felt like I'd reached the deepest parts of ineptitude. but after a few weeks of doing stuff daily, I was pleasantly surprised to learn that I was actually pretty competant. in terms of deadlines, I was late to work almost every day.
>anything that can get me on track in limited time
regular exercise. regular sleep. no excuses. also if you're addicted to media like myself, it's okay to turn it off and let yourself get bored. often times I'd be late trying to consume one last piece of media, when I knew I still had to take a shower.
a519fd No.2227221
>>2227217
Ahh, I didn't know about your bones. That really does sound like a tough situation to be in. The solution to most problems is prevented by the next.
What kind of eating disorder is it?
2b4796 No.2227222
>>2227221
It's vaguely similar to anorexia, except when I do eat I tend to binge
a519fd No.2227223
>>2227220
>then eat less. you should try to get cardio, but if you can't, you shouldn't eat as much. you'll feel crummy.
Hoo boy...There's days I don't eat at all. Eating less is not the advice you want to be giving.
Almost all of my mental problems stem from my autism. The best way to phrase it is that I'm a perfectionist without the ability to fight difficulties. I get stressed really, really easily by tiny mistakes and always give up in the face of it. It's been the story of all my endeavors in the past few years.
I'm not unhappy. I'm not without joy. I'm not depressed. I have great social ties.
Yet I still get so much stress I just cannot deal with it. I can only distract myself with whatever. And that never fixes my issues.
2b4796 No.2227224
I want to hurt myself
Beat my head until I bleed
Break bones
So that I hurt in places that make sense
a519fd No.2227225
>>2227222
So that's a mental issue of sorts, right?
I honestly forgot that could be a thing...
2b4796 No.2227226
>>2227225
It's kind of an aversion to food but by the time I break down and eat my body wants like 2 days of calories even though it's been a day and I was in bed for most of it
a519fd No.2227227
>>2227226
So how much do you end up eating?
Sounds like you eat two days worth of food every two days?
b0d55b No.2227228
>>2227223
>Almost all of my mental problems stem from my autism.
well, no. you can't say that for certain. autism is complex. and so are you. if you've been stuck feeling the same things over and over for months, it's easy to think it's a part of who you are. but sometimes what you need is a dramatic change of scenery to realize you were merely stuck in a mood.
> I get stressed really, really easily by tiny mistakes and always give up in the face of it
same
>It's been the story of all my endeavors in the past few years.
same
>Yet I still get so much stress I just cannot deal with it.
you can't outfight stress. or out-think it. but there are so many hours of the day where you're not stressed. when you're asleep. when you're happy. perhaps when you're high. stress can be low or high. and you don't seem so damaged that you never experience low anxiety.
you don't know how fucked up I was. how dark things seemed. felt anxiety was merely an inescapable part of who I am. it sorta is. I mean, I'm feeling anxious now. a little depressed even. I know I could let it go. if I really wanted. but instead, I'm sticking with it. not sure why. but at least I know it's not stuck to me.
2b4796 No.2227229
>>2227227
No I eat a days worth of food all at once most days
a519fd No.2227230
>>2227229
Ooooh.
That doesn't sound too bad.
Hope I'm not too wrong.
>>2227228
>well, no. you can't say that for certain. autism is complex. and so are you.
You're right. I thought I put a disclaimer there or a "to put it simplified" My bad, I really should have.
>what you need is a dramatic change of scenery to realize you were merely stuck in a mood.
That... feels somewhat insulting. I freaking wish this was some kind of mood I could hope to one day snap out of. I really do. But no matter whether it's autism or not, this is part of me.
ab7256 No.2227231
>>2227218
youre not dealing with a world of reason, youre dealing with vague groups that manifest their general will in politics. reason has nothing to do with it because youre not dealing with rational matter.
i take the dividing lines as they present themselves in politics, and reason out who is sat on either side of it, if theyre on any side at all.
how do you find nuance with someone who seeks your destruction?
let me try and clarify my views a touch for you, i do not view politics as it exists now as rational, but as a murky representation of the general will of a collection of agents with diverse views and the conflicts within. if you seek rational discourse and concern for truth, either look elsewhere or be prepared to truly commit yourself to producing a better polity, because the nature of politics right now does not lend itself to what you and i truly want because the matter of which it is composed is not itself rational.
right now the two most notable political factions in US politics are fighting over whos lived experiences are valid, and not whether politics that is party to a given group is legitimate. if you want reasonable politics, trump is not the enemy but an unavoidable reaction to the real problem. to destroy trump and all he represents, first you need to attack the thing which gives him power. to my mind, this is in part the large corporations of the US which have been abusing their ability to shape norms and legislation to the detriment of certain sections of the US. the music industry, the movie industry, the media, the tech industry, all these groups have large bad actors who have engendered the disdain of the public, and when these problems are left uncorrected until elections roll around after the problem has been festering for years you can expect a less than considered response given how short peoples memories are.
in short, if you want a just and fair response you should never leave it up to the direct will of the people, as democratic politics tends to be a rather blunt instrument.
ab7256 No.2227232
>>2227219
10 miles away?
i have honestly no idea what to say on that, im sure youre already taking pain meds and ive no fucking clue what to do about a displaced hip beyond visiting a doctor.
you own a halberd?
b0d55b No.2227233
>>2227230
>I freaking wish this was some kind of mood I could hope to one day snap out of.
folk with the tism experience moods far more intensely. it feels more real. sometimes like you're just an exposed nerve. but you're not always that exposed nerve. spent an actual year, hating myself. days were dark. waking up and going to sleep avoiding not thinking about suicide.
it's been a steady crawl away from those days. but there's enough distance between them that I feel confident enough giving advice on it. enough to say that yes, they are moods. long lasting, stunting, reality defining moods. but they're not permanent. and they're not who you'll be in just a few months with the right direction.
95ecdc No.2227234
#1 MOST SHOCKING BETRAYAL IN THE HISTORY OF ANIME
ab7256 No.2227235
who gives a fuck what pence does or thinks as long as he doesnt quit?
a519fd No.2227236
>>2227233
>spent an actual year, hating myself. days were dark. waking up and going to sleep avoiding not thinking about suicide.
Been there. I wasn't suicidal but I didn't want to live. I can understand calling that a mood, even if it lasted that long.
Be not being able to deal with stress is not that. Stress induces moods, but my inability to deal with them is a part of me. Not a mood.
b0d55b No.2227237
>>2227231
>youre not dealing with a world of reason, youre dealing with vague groups that manifest their general will in politics.
there. are. no. fucking. vague. groups. there are individuals. and the actions performed by those individuals.
>i take the dividing lines as they present themselves in politics
no way in hell you do. someone who admits to being so unversed in specifics no way has enough data points to draw lines. but I do. my categories are boring and still generalizations, but they do not indicate there is some war going on. I don't need you to trust me on this, I can bring you a thousand random articles across various outlets, and while you may see trends, there is so much fucking nuance and depth and grey. sad but true.
>how do you find nuance with someone who seeks your destruction?
sorry, but this is utterly and totally pathetic. reality is nuanced. reality is grey. how poorly read are you to think sides must be fought for faithfully and to the exclusion of DEPTH and NUANCE, when we have fucking centuries of generations of humans we know are retarded for having done the same? Are you so eager to be one of those retards?
You don't even KNOW your enemy, and barely read about the variety of positions that make up the greys and levels of nuance on their side. You fucking frame them as people who desire your destruction. This warped, broad brush view of your "enemy", you admit is a response to your enemy broad brushing you, and the solution is to throw nuance out the window, and fight with a desire to win.
>all these groups have large bad actors
and somehow the solution isn't encouraging skepticism, critical thinking, and using a variety of sources to inform your views? encouraging transparency no matter the side? democracy is a blunt instrument for sure. but when the voters calls their representives in significant numbers, it has an affect. it overshadows the lobbyists. it makes those actors change strategies. because democracy still works. and calling in still works.
The world is grey. there are no groups. just people. I can prove it. and once we learn to exclude bad actors, we can attack all those who attack based on generalized views of groups. Those who attack white people, are enemies. Those who attack the rich, are enemies. Because they both attack hazy groups. Encourage and legislate for transparency. Make it so nobody in politics has to be trusted or taken at their word, and everyone can independantly verify their words.
95ecdc No.2227238
b0d55b No.2227241
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>>2227236
by a mood, I mean the temporary balance of hormones and chemicals that make up your organism. sleepy moods. horny moods. stress is an adrenal mood.
>but my inability to deal with them is a part of me.
and I hope a therapist can help you with that. to help you get used to noticing stress before it happens to let it roll off you. not sure how else to put it. and I am on the spectrum. and there was a time I thought those days would be the rest of my days. and now it's been months since I've felt something I used to feel daily, and it's not something I expected to happen. it just did. and if we have anything in common, I think it can for you too.
ab7256 No.2227242
>>2227237
oh dear fucking lord. im saying politics as it exists right now is built on fucking subjectivity.
the dividing lines are evident in the sense that they present themselves with varying degrees of prominence in public discourse. for that i try to look beyond any given limited group such as print media or social media and instead look to the greatest aggregate i can find, in this case the election debates and the discussion surrounding them.
as for knowing my enemy, when individuals present themselves that is precisely what i do. beyond that i characterize organisations based on their observable actions and contrast that with my own values. im afraid to say when you associate yourself with a given group any unwillingness to confront other members of that group about their bad actions is as good as acceptance of them, which makes you an enabler. in that sense, i have no issues with saying i want the new york times, the independant, etc, to go bankrupt.
it is the solution, long term. the problem is that there are currently immediate concerns, some of which are indeed legitimate, which require immediate solutions. dont blame just those who are clumsy in correcting them, blame those who made such crude corrections desirable in the first place as they are the ultimate cause.
as for democracy being a blunt instrument, what im saying there is that if you leave it to the public to solve an issue you will get a crude result, because thats just how democracy works. if you want something else, never let it come to a public referendum.
a519fd No.2227243
Everyone saw this coming three hours ago, right?
1122d6 No.2227244