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It's just sad this shit is pushed on them. That would have been most of us if we were born 15-20 years later. When I was that young I didn't know what gay was. I didn't know what any of those feelings were.Thinking back now when I was in 5th or 6th grade had some feelings for a male classmate. I didn't know what that feeling was so I channeled it into making him want to tackle me or beat me up, so I would tease him till he did/ He was much taller than I was. And when he did tackle me once it gave me this feeling like I wanted it to happen again. Knowing what I know now it's clear what I wanted, but back then I was just 10 or 11.
I also had a female friend who was a bit of a tomboy. I thought nothing of it and well into middle school we were close friends. Not once, ever did it cross my mind to try anything a boy would want to try with a girl. I think when we were much younger I asked her what's it like being a girl. I think around that time I saw something on TV, maybe a show my mom was watching or I flipped off a cartoon, but someone was dressing as a girl and they were a guy and I thought to myself something like " I like that idea" something about the idea of dressing as a girl as a boy made me feel something. When I played Pokemon ruby I picked girl without thinking about it, I got teased, but it didn't really phase me at all. As an adult now I know I'm a guy and I don't want to be a girl. I just really like crossdressing. I think most of the time when I look at traps I just wish that was me or I was able to do that. I don't even give a shit about passing or going out in public like that. I don't want my friends to know, I just want to do it. I never told anyone about this I only plan on telling boys I date.
If I had said anything to my mom about that when I was that kids age she would have most likely not enabled it and played it off as nothing. I think she knows or suspects I'm gay and I just won't say it and I have a feeling she's known since I was in middle school. If I said that when I was that young she'd just think I'm gay 2-3 years before I already suspect she started thinking it.I'm not out yet, but based on what I think it wouldn't make a difference if I ever told her that or not. she'd just say "I had a feeling you were when you told me you wanted to dress like a girl when you were 10" vs "I had a feeling when you showed no interest in girls." tagged with "so that time when you were 19-20 and dated that girl." yup a sham, mom a fucking sham.
tl;dr I'm so happy I wasn't born 10 years ago to be outed on TV as a huge faggot that likes dresses. I'm so happy I kept that I'm a huge faggot that's likes dresses to myself and postings on 4chan and 8chan.