/abdl/ - Adult Baby - Diaper Lover★

>>69328 (OP)

Yeah that's known as the binge-purge cycle. You can get out of it by moderating your use, going all-in, or stopping entirely.

I wouldn't recommend the third option, because it's no fun, and it's not really something that you'd need to be ashamed of.

The first step is to have diapers on-hand so your desire doesn't need to get to the point of buying a ton of diapers. That way you're indulging a little, more often. That'll reduce the shame that you'll feel, which will make it easier to manage.

Idk if that's helpful but it worked for me

>>69330

Pretty faggy yeah. All western-individual-based environmental arguments are a fucking trap. 1st world nations don't actually pollute as much as you think, developing nations like India and China do far worse.

The idea that you make a difference to the environment is just deluded vegan thinking

>if I abstain from meat I am not supporting the industry and if enough people join me the whole meat market will collapse!

Not going to happen.

Additionally, there is no end goal. When with people concerned about the environment ever be satisfied? There is always less polluting you could be doing. Even if you recycled literally everything (which isn't even physically possible) the pollution caused by production, transportation, and even the recycling process itself will continue to exist. Like all left wing politics, there is no fixed goal; there will always be inequality to fight against and poor people to give money to. Even if you gave in to all their policies they could always go further

Personally I'm in the 'too late now' camp. Fuck it, we'll move to another planet sooner or later. Or someone will figure a way to make bank off of pollutants and drive an industry based on collecting them.

>>69338

yea nice rationalization but I'm gonna go ahead and worry about my impact regardless of how negligible it is. although I do quietly hope that human ingenuity catches up and we can fix the environment using as of yet unforeseen tech rather than ditching the planet like some sort of, I don't know, like a used nappy?

If my subconscious is anything to go by I have extreme shame issues with this fetish. More often than not any dreams I have with them are about my insecurities concerning liking and wearing them, whether it's being caught wearing or just someone I know stumbling upon my search history/porn/collection. Tried to offhandedly bring up a dream about my gf wearing one to her while having a unrelated thread that got derailed into diapers as an excuse and I couldn't even get the word "diaper" out of my mouth because it's been so ingrained into me to keep this as tight of a secret as possible I must be psychologically unable to reveal it purposefully (the response was less than stellar as well).

I doubt I'll ever drop it entirely or go through a binge/purge cycle but I feel like the chances of wearing them ever again if I move in with her are slim to none.

>>69340

Sure my dude, keep feeling guilty for your actions as part of a nation not even close to half a billion people. Meanwhile, just ignore the 2 developing nations who combined have almost a 3rd of the world's population, whilst simultaneously having some of the most lax laws on pollution.

I would be really embarrassed if someone found out (especially a cute girl) but I would never say that I am ashamed of my fetish. I enjoy it, it makes me happy and so thus I do it

>>69345

never said I was ignoring the rest of it but u can keep strawmanning if itll make u feel better

>>69343

why keep your love of them from your gf? you won't be happy and she supposedly loves you, so you'd think she'd want to participate in something you enjoy right?

>>69345

It only makes sense to consider pollution per capita. For instance:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_countries_by_greenhouse_gas_emissions_per_capita

>>69330

get cloth?

>but energy and water cost of washing them is also very bad for the environment!!!!

go potty train?

>Toilets use way too much of our water supply!

kill yourself?

>We're running out of grave space and cremation will spread my carbons into the air!

sit in the dark and do literally nothing i guess.

FYI, I confessed to my girlfriend and she was accepting, but was turned off by it. It is quite a bummer, but there's more to life than sexual gratification.

>>69409

>>69343

I think you should definitely mention your fantasies to her at some point. It's important that she knows that about you since you two are sexually involved with each other and will be living together, presumably. She'll probably think it's weird or not understand it entirely, but let it sink in and be open to questions about it. In addition you should ask her if there are any fantasies she has. Cooperate with each other and seek compromise involving these fantasies. She may surprise you.

>>69346

This. I don't advertise it, and I would certainly be embarrassed if my family found out, but I do love this fetish. 90% of my irl friends are ABDL (moved to a big city w/ a great kink scene) and knowing them has made my life so much better. I've thought about the convenience of getting rid of it and just being "normal," but I don't think I could do it even if given the chance.

>>69329

What the fuck is a "binge-purge cycle" you fucking retard?

What the fuck is a purge?

Nothing even remotely like that happens in the real world you fuckpuppet

>>69526

http://understanding.infantilism.org/binge-purge_cycle.php

>>69526

… you have to be 18 to post here kid.

The binge-purge cycle is a well known phenomenon in our community that many struggle with when they first get into diapers. Going between loving them and hating them/yourself trying to urge yourself to quit.

>>69547

It is a hard thing to kick. I'm glad that I'm getting past it.

>>69547

Fucking bullshit.

Just because you dreamt something up because you are too cucked to deal with your fetish doesn't make it "well known" you little cuck shit.

Fuck you and kill yourself with your shitty binge purge garbage. Nobody needs this crap.

>>69615

lmao ive never seen someone get this pissy over literally nothing

>>69615

lmao ive never seen someone get this pissy over literally nothing, here's your (you) now go be a le epic trolle somewhere else

>>69622

He probably thinks he's trolling; but still pretty obvious edgy teenager still in the self loathing phase of this fetish

Most people eventually come to accept that you don't grow out of this fetish. Some practice more casually, some NEED it to get off and just learn to accept that.

Some stay angry and hate themselves for ever and are the saddest of drama trolls around.

Hope the kid grows out of that stage.

>>69615

I've never experienced it, but whoever you're responding to is absolutely correct. If you've spent even a modicum amount of time in the AB/DL community, there is no way you wouldn't have heard of it.

>>69615

Binge/purge is real, and it's not specific to ABDL. It's caused by a duality of feelings: an overwhelming desire for something (binge) followed by shame for the desire (purge). I'm largely over the shame now, but in high school I would buy and throw away entire packs sometimes because of it.

>>69615

What the actual fuck dude. Binge purge is real as fuck. If you've never felt even an ounce of shame or remorse over this fetish you're probably extremely fucked in the head in some form or another

>>69330

Just by living your adding to whatever problem you think you're making, so fuck it.

>>69338

is this the american dream

>>69338

>Like all left wing politics, there is no fixed goal; there will always be inequality to fight against and poor people to give money to. Even if you gave in to all their policies they could always go further

You're absolutely`right. Those things will always exist. They could never possibly get any better. We should just stop trying. You're really smart and special with a unique, interesting, well thought out worldview. Congrats.

>>69802

>>69800

Lmao something is leaking. There will always be hierarchy you fags

>>69346

Same here.

I see no reason to be ashamed as it's not really something that I can control.

But it's easiest to just hide it and not have to deal with what anybody else may think.

Also I'm grateful of everything that I enjoy, no matter how "weird" or "wrong" it may seem, as there's not too many of these things left

I never really went through the binge/purge thing myself. When I was younger I very rarely got the opportunity to indulge, so it made sense to me to keep all of my stuff for the future, because the itch would inevitably come back. Why spend more money than you need to when it already takes a lot of balls to buy diapers and baby stuff in the first place?

I guess it just never made sense to me. I understand it and am by no means exempt from the shame and embarrassment, but it doesn't make sense to throw everything away.

of course i've been ashamed and embarrassed about loving diapers.

i had a fascination with them since i was potty trained that turned sexual with puberty, and i found that diapers and sexual thoughts went hand in hand. as in, i couldn't cum without thinking about diapers in some form, and that pictures or videos of naked women engaging in sex acts didn't even really give me an erection if diapers weren't involved.

didn't feel safe talking about this obviously, constantly afraid of being found out. having the internet provided the "i'm not the only one" realization but this didn't really make it better cause my reality was still that i couldn't actually buy/wear diapers and that i was deathly afraid of fucking up and getting found out because of my activity on the family computer. it felt like such an important part of my burgeoning identity that i couldn't stand not being able to express it, so i told my "girlfriend" when i was 12 about it like a fucking moron and of course when we broke up she told everyone at school.

there were a few mutual friends of ours that confronted me about it and i tried to lie and say she was making it up to slander me but i'm pretty sure they knew i was full of shit. and then the next year in science class we watched some video about astronauts and there was this segment where they talked about having to wear diapers in their space suits and i could tell other kids in the room (including my ex) were laughing at me.

i developed moderate to severe anxiety and depression in high school and university, and it's possible that it would've happened anyway because of biology or whatever, but i really do think the long term psychological damage of having this extremely essential and powerful urge (again diapers and sex are pretty much equivalent for me, there's no "oh i like diapers but sometimes i just want to jerk off to vanilla stuff") that i can't talk about for fear of humiliation, talking about it with a person i trusted, having them betray that trust, and then having to go through the next 4-5 years knowing that people around me knew my deepest secret, really contributed to my mental health issues. without this fetish i'd probably still be fucked up but it's hard to separate those experiences from how i turned out.

but in the right circumstances when i've been able to pad up in three thick, white, fluffy, soft, crinkly diapers and masturbate with no fear or apprehension i've had mind blowing orgasms that i can't fathom vanilla people experiencing, so i guess that's the trade off…

>>69810

>There will always be hierarchy you fags

And there will always be opportunities to make those hierarchies maximumly beneficial for all involved.