/abdl/ - Adult Baby - Diaper Lover★

>>61159 (OP)

jacking off while wearing a piss filled diaper turns me on. That's it. I know it's degenerate, but I don't give a fuck if it makes my wee wee hard.

sage

>>61160

Sssshhhh. Hush little baby

>>61159 (OP)

I've come to realize that the fantasy of being a little kid who's put back in diapers is a lot more fun than the reality of putting on diapers as an adult. I still do it occasionally when I get particularly aroused, but I'm always left feeling a bit disappointed afterwards.

The most satisfying fantasies I fap to now tend to involve cute little anime girls being treated like toddlers - willingly or otherwise - while I either act as a parent figure or simply observe. In a couple more years I imagine I'll have completely switched from almost 100% sub to 100% dom with this fetish.

>>61179

masturbating in diapers with a dick is hard tbh, women must have it a lot easier not having to stroke anything

>>61179

>I've come to realize that the fantasy of being a little kid who's put back in diapers is a lot more fun than the reality of putting on diapers as an adult. I still do it occasionally when I get particularly aroused, but I'm always left feeling a bit disappointed afterwards.

This is definitely a hard pill to swallow. I always have to prevent myself from splurging on ABDL diapers because I know after I masturbate I'm just going to be disappointed and it will feel the same if I just jerk off to some diaper porn and go on with my day

>>61181

That's not the problem. It turns out it's even possible to masturbate while wearing locking plastic pants.

The real problem is that my fantasies mostly involve emotional states which simply aren't achievable as an adult voluntarily wearing diapers on my own. It's not "wow, this is so babyish. I'm really immature for my age". I'm just an adult pissing myself while wearing weird fetish gear. It's the first-person equivalent of comparing cute 2D diaper porn to videos of Chris Chan.

>>61159 (OP)

No cause all I need is a hug

Just got back from a small munch. For the past couple years I've been relatively active, going to munches, parties, cons. But now? I'm feeling a bit disgusted and disillusioned tbh. Maybe I'll try to take a break from all this.

>>61182

This is what prompted me to move beyond pure DL and explore AB tendencies by wearing for extended periods, especially when watching cartoons or playing kids games. Of course weed and booze help with it too

>>61192

I'm in the same boat. For me, babyish stuff--especially diapers–is nothing but a sexual desire and I can never feel little when doing it. But if I watch cartoons, hug plushies, and do that kind of stuff then I feel like a happy little kid again. And alcohol definitely makes it better. I wish adult life wasn't such a disappointment and I could find something that makes me happy within "normal" life, but I'll settle for exiting reality as a little kid every night.

I wish I had an irl daddy to regress me when I'm stressed and deal with my problems for me. I've been going through some tough shit this last week and would love nothing more than to suck on my pacifier and waddle around in diapers all day, but I feel guilty. I have to be an adult and deal with arranging shit, I don't feel I can indulge or regress right now

This is an interesting thread. Later on Im gonna actually read whats inside. For now though, I will say that lately I have been extremely depressed, and during that time my urge to actually wear and use diapers has dropped significantly, but my urge to look at girls in diapers on tumblr and the associated drive to jack off has remained mostly constant, except when my depression was really REALLY bad.

Ill elaborate more on this later.

Yes but… my daddy is gone and now I don't even want to watch cartoons or put on my onesie or cuddle my stuffies. :c

>>61247

Why/where is your daddy gone?

>>61174

Are you me? I have and still have a pretty good life, no stress. But the idea is so appealing and cute.

I had a long day at a job placement center today, some big staffing service where the bombard you with paperwork before determining that you suck and maybe offer you a warehouse crew job if you're lucky.

But, they had a kid's daycare room where people could leave their kids while they do the job hunt shit, and just walking past it gave me such a lump in my throat. It was full of multicolored playmats and cute toys and a big TV playing some kids movie. I just wanted to go in and lay on the playmat and watch cartoons.

But I'm pretty sure that would have hurt my job search.

>>61253

Its a long story I don't want to put on here but we are separated, possibly permanently.

>>61289

ok. I think the point is that you need to talk about it with someone if its bothering you.

>>61268

>job center.

Yeah they tried to give me hard labor dragging crates of gravel with a bunch of Mexicans. Most millennial are destined to live as teenagers for the rest of their lives

>>61300

Got a source for this? Couldn't find it with reverse image search.

>>61291

thanks that's so fucking helpful dude, i have sooooo many people I can tell about my abdl relationship and why it makes it so much harder on me and i definitely want to spill all the details to strangers

fuck off

>>61320

Someone sounds like they need a spanking tbh

>>61264

Whats with us? Maybe we just like the added comfort and security?

>>61159 (OP)

Yeah, I definitely use diapers a lot more often when I'm stressed/lonely, both wearing and masturbating in them. The problem is that while it's exciting and helps in the moment, for all kinds of Freudian reasons owing to my crappy childhood, there's always that profound shame afterwards, like I'm suddenly coming out of some kind of mad fever and I'm back in reality… and soaked in piss. On the other hand, I've had very little luck eliminating the fetish from my psyche.

>>61268

Ha, reminds me of an awful fast food job I had in high school. On hot days, the kids who lived next door would play outside in just their diapers, splashing around in a plastic pool or something. If I turned my head, I could see them through the window right next to me. I kept thinking over and over again, "Damn, I wish I could do that," then feeling disgusted with myself, since I didn't know anything about the fetish then and hadn't really dealt with my crappy childhood yet.

>>61174

>>61264

Good for you! I always assumed abdl's had lousy childhoods like mine but it's good to hear that's not always the case.

>>61364

Another angle I've heard is that the fetish is actually "potty training failure." When a child chooses to use diapers and refuses the toilet by their own volition they're generally regarded as untrained. So use adults who like diapers are essentially the kids who failed the final stage of potty training, which is to prefer toilets to diapers. It's a pretty sexy angle too since it means the tumblr girls are examples of attractive Stacies failing potty training

>>61364

Hey, >>61174 Here. That doesn't actually apply to me. But you mentioning it made me remember that my dad once said that I actually skipped pull ups. Apparently I was potty trained really early and went straight from diapers to briefs. So I don't even remember a time when I needed diapers or pull ups to keep me dry.

I had a childhood where I developed the mechanism that diapers were exciting and safe. And life's problems just reinforced that mechanism for me.

If I was exposed to a year of some hellish shock/brainwashing/hell I reckon I'd get rid of this mechanism. But is it worth the suffering? Nah not for me.

I had a neglectful and forgotten childhood. I was also extremely overprotected. Mom didn't diaper and feed me as a baby but had my sister do it. Years later, I turn 6, my mom must have felt bad for being neglectful in this regard and put me back in diapers (underdeveloped bladder) and gave me a night time bottle. It probably gave me strong associations with love and comfort at an important turning point in my development; This lasts for a few years.

Fast forward, I turn 13 and the pleasures evolve to include the libido.

I feel as though this is such a strong need for me that it's actually embedded into my very personality on the deepest levels. That's why I need a very gentle and nurturing gf/bf. I don't think I'd be happy in a relationship where I have to be "the man of the house". A dom is something I require otherwise I'd rather be alone than pretend to be someone i'm not.

>>61374

I like that idea but maybe just because I'm into humiliation.

>>61174

>>61406

Almost exactly this, except I don't care about baby clothes or really any part of the AB side of things.

I just enjoy wearing and using and masturbating in diapers. I have no idea why. I've had this interest for as long as I can remember, before finding people attractive even.

I don't know why, It's just something that makes my dick hard. I never thought much of it. It's not doing a good job of making me cope with depression if that's what it should do.